dawn

Blowing fart bubbles in a hot tub full of Dr pepper

Who is this guy?

He’s Cricket, he’s a cat.

You don’t think I’m a nice guy?

I use my turn signals in a parking lot.

The most difficult part of a 9:00 to 5:00 is the same thing it’s always been.

Biting your tongue.

Listening, taking in external information, and withholding your true response.

Perhaps one of the greatest frustrations of being alive in general.

You have to do it, every single day. Every one of them.

One after another after another after another after another after another after another after another after another.

Hell doesn’t seem so bad in comparison, but that’s another story.

(inside)

Yes yes yes, too much to be grateful for. Complaining is out of place.

I know.

I want to play guitar that’s so pretty, it turns your penis inside out. It reframes masculinity altogether.

Psychology is very interesting

And I’d rather listen to people that had to fight, adversity and stuff.

I wonder how much of an attention whore Jesus was?

I do like that he kicked it with prostitutes and losers, that’s pretty cool lol.

Perhaps I’m just a passenger.

I do see the rest of them flying by though, I just know they’ll get caught at the light.

Maybe it’s all the same.

And at least I am afforded the time to look out the window. Lot of pretty stuff out there.

Just like me, there is no one else like you. And existing itself might be categorized as a form of mental illness. So whatever. Stay peaceful, try to laugh, try not to be sad or angry.

I’d rather the yellow King be blue. Probably an easy fix in Photoshop. I dig the concept though, Cool imagery.

Listening to something about corporate crisis management. Does sound like a slimy gig.

I guess you’ll have that.

I’m interested in how people write., if they make it like dialogue, or if it’s a collective voice, or if it’s a narrative from a single mind. It’s neat that there’s no limits to it. I like that part. If you’re creative, everything is a blank canvas and that’s a really exciting part about being alive.

What’s the deal with cloudy urine?

What’s that about?

Probably means something.

There’s something about holding a pen lightly, loosen the muscles in your fingers and just kind of flow.

Cursive or straight letters,

This sounds weird, but my handwriting changes, frequently depending on mood.

Sometimes it is absolute chaos, sometimes it is blocky and almost over concentrated, and every great now and then, it’s elegant.

Yes I used that word .

But more often than not it’s chaos.

I’d like about 20% less, about 10% more blocky and legible, and about 60% more elegant.

You elegant handwriting mother fucker you…

Seems like it’s about not bearing down, not forcing, not cramping, not pushing, not stressing.

The pen also matters, substantially. And the environment in which the pen was raised, what kind of parents the pen had.

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Not one single item of my music gear was purchased on a credit card, or on any credit in general.

Fuck you!

I earned it.

If you’re really good, you can make psychopaths relatable. No small feat though.

I wish my employer wouldn’t cyberstalk me on the low key, on the YouTubes.

I forgot what year I live in.

At a bare minimum they could click like on my shit, give a guy a little dopamine hit.

But they do give me money, so f*** it.

I only smoke indica.

What a stupid question.

Recently, people have decided to overuse the word”vibe”.

I was think it’s funny to watch the words groups use, It’s almost like fashion ,like it’s in motion.

I’m sure it’s always been that way .

But now the internet only allows words to be cool for, I don’t know, maybe a few months.

Dig it? Dadio?

See we’re all cheap sheep asleep.

George Harrison was on some shit about redoing the human race over the next three or four human generations.

He had this idea, and he said it would really take a long time, but you could restructure the entire system.

Now that’s an optimistic mother fucker.

I go straight to mass Extinction and subsequent gene editing.

Or you can just keep doing stuff like you have been, I’m sure it’ll be fine.

(lol)

Ele oh El indeed.

I love a good character, all forms. Love those ones that draw you in. Relate and identify.

Fun stuff.

Lore and Fable..Dark light , superego, hologram,mood,timeline,blue sky,habit,head rush, fractal.

Attributes and things to steal.

To mimic.

To charade.

There’s a turkey processing plant and the whole town literally smells like shit and rotting guts.

And that’s how you develop self-esteem and confidence, ego and pride.

Smelling the feces of foul frequently.

You get used to it.

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All right, let’s be real..

(no more music gear)

I just need a pair of small cabinets or the milkman stereo powerhead.

Maybe like 2:12s, but I want him to be separate because I need that stereo field. It’s all about the spread.

They need to finalize the board and get rid of what I don’t need, because I’ll admit..

I am an addict.

And I’ve become carried away..

(Pretty cool though)

You’re damn right pretty cool, and at least it’s not drugs.

I’m a very rich man

(in audio)

Yes .

Dollar for dollar, I have a pretty nice car worth of music gear. S*** man a very nice car.

My base is very rare, it’s a neck through so it’s one piece of wood and the company only existed for a few years, but holy cow does it play well.

A bass that plays like a guitar.

And the pedals and synthesizers I’ve recently been into, the resale is good on them, they don’t really diminish because people always want them.

Which is interesting, most things in this world diminish in value.

But not music gear.

I won’t retire off it, and it won’t help me meet any girls,

But it’s like,

It’s like standing over a treasure chest full of diamonds, rubies, sapphire.

Because each one opens new possibility, and new ability and new control and power.

Feels like, God ,I guess.

Just a bunch of fuckin colors, and I really dig how that feels.

I also understand hypomania, the urge to shop, and shiny object syndrome.

But it makes me happy, still.

And being happy feels really good.

And still being able to pay your bills.

Soooo

I couldn’t have done that if I remained a true hardcore junkie. If I was f****** around with real drugs, I wouldn’t be able to have what I have. I used to pawn my Stratocaster, damn near monthly…

(stay straight)

Straight enough.

I’m glad that I’m not drinking.

Feel like I did what I needed to do with the intoxication, which is a bizarre way to think about it.

I had a phrase,”people say ‘drug use’ and I always think… What are you using your drugs for?”

I think video games are a sin.

All honesty.

Think it’s just a relaxation thing, which is good…

But still a waste.

(cept Minecraft)

Still…