dawn

Emotional vampires.

You have to eat happiness.

Have to.

That’s your fate, that’s why you’re here.

If you see someone with a little sparkle,a little glint,

You have to eat it.

You can’t help yourself.

It keeps them exactly where you want them.

No happy days for you.

No Monday, no Tuesday and so forth.

And if you see it ?

If you see someone smiling, even a little, you have to snuff it out .

Have to .

Can’t let that shit happen,not even five minutes of it. Eat that Joy. Slurp up the self respect and leave nothing behind. It’s your nature.

A needle and a thread,a skull full of puncture wounds.A cage around your mind getting tighter with time. A little bit more every day. Tighter and tighter and tighter..

Aso.

I see it.

I see how I got here.

(empty)

Bleh .the worst feeling.

I should..

(you should take some time to think)

I don’t want any of it.

Anything I see when I open my eyes.

I don’t want it.

(take it easy)

I don’t.

I hate all of it.

(this will pass, breathe easy)

Fuck my life.

I think I’m done..

(things depend on you)

I never asked for it.

Just distance, slipstream and distance. Pull my bones out. Break each of my fingers. Run over my face with a lawnmower. Use a whip with glass shards In the tail.Pull out my teeth with pliers.Tie a guitar string around my penis and Hook it to the bumper of a truck.Smash my skull with a sledgehammer. Hang me.

Shoot me.

Cut my wrists.

Pour fentanyl powder directly into my eyeballs.

Put my face behind a jet engine.

Make me walk on thumbtacks.

Somebody,for the love of Christ, somebody kill me please 🙏🥺.