dawn

No matter how crazy I get, on my craziest days..

Your world is still crazier.

No matter how sad I can get, your world is sadder..

No matter how hopeless and destitute… You get where I’m going with this..

No corner is safe.

There is no spot disconnected.

Like a nervous system.

Gotta eat it.. Gotta plug in…

You be optimistic, I’ll be realistic.. Help happens and the ground level.. And I.. And I could watch it burn somedays.. Watch the shit go sideways..

That’s no way to be..

Turning it off feels good too 👍

Not feeling like a goon or a pawn, that feels good.

(catch yourself scrolling)

Yeah..I shouldn’t do that,, but I do sometimes.

I always regret it, when I get a wiff of all of you .

I wish I didn’t.. When I see how you’re talking..

Groups..

Pukey puke puke 🤮

Exhausting..

I’m going to try and get some sleep.. didn’t have a great day.

Gotta work and put in effort, I’m good with that..

I just hate that you gotta fuck with people..

Hate that part.

Empty.

No meaning.

Scraped out shell..

Nothing in there, Bleh…

(fauxpium)

Is not helping, not for months now, takes two to get high, forty bucks..

Every other day is a fun high, a good mood,, the rest is just..

Shit.

It’s shit.

Psychological and emotional.

Bet I could sleep for a week..

If I were allowed.

Yawn ..

Fuck it … write today off as a wash.

Shit man , write off my last five years 🥱😔

Just a wash.. 🥱

Kinda fell in love with typing though,

(fuck it?)

Fuck it .

I’ll rebirth or I’ll die again..

I dunno..

Whatever gets me away from you, I’ll take it.

Sign me up 👍

Fuck the lot of you.