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Which ones did I like?

I liked the idea of installing debit card readers on homeless people, the image of people being tapped on the heads with chip cards.

I liked being the fool, intentionally taking the wrong perspective and baiting the reader to follow, troll shit.

I kinda liked the N word with love, that one’s true, I rewrote it for better flow later, better payoff on the river.

That one about burning down your house for insurance money.

The one about hearing a story from a KKK member, the serpent being an Asian person , Eve mated outside of the bloodline, another wild tale heard secondhand; there’s way more to it. The word adultery means to make something unpure. And God told Abraham that his children would be like the sands of the sea. Abraham had three kids; one went north and settled in the Caucasus mountains. In a nutshell, Hebrews rewrote the Bible to make themselves the chosen people, and it’s whites, the superior race.

And that’s the kind of shit you hear round these parts’

30 odd years ago.

which other ones did I like?

That joke about cutting people open, the panera bread story, true to the word.

I liked the space ones, maybe having a mild buzz and zooming out, really fun.

I liked pretending as if I was talking to the Zeitgeist, or through the eyes of a terrible person.

I liked typing about Monster, he was the best.

I kinda liked jokey news stuff, barking about some unfounded opinion in the public eye, that’s pretty fun.

More than any of it, I just liked doing it.

Real bitch of a crossroads,,,

I absolutley excuse any potential reader, ” i’m really sorry, I don’t know what I’m doing”

Talking is critical to the existence . But only useful to a point, it doesn’t matter if you “don’t do shit.”

So I excuse anyone passing by, totally get it,

*but it’s really fun to do*

it’s gotta be good for you,

Anyways, it’s completely unfair for anyone to tell you if you’re allowed to talk, on a website that you pay for. If you like it, whatever. If you hate it and me? like..seriously tho..take a number. Doesn’t matter a bit.

and plant stuff, I kinda liked those too.

And the band ones, talking about the Milestone,

Kevin had this one drummer, and the guy was a confirmed toolbox. He never really learned the songs, and he’d do these ridiculous “double-bass” drum builds to this hhhhuge climax……. and the song would keep going—an entire crowd of people watching this shit go down,,fah-king hilairity .

I liked typing about my friends, Alex has a really neat story, Kevin too, complicated. Lives are fuckin complicated and that’s day one bro.

(I know)

REGRETS

Debauchery- I can speak about drug history from a place of knowing, so it’s honest. At the same time, perhaps one shouldn’t flirt with the idea of romanticizing how far I’ve gone.

Kids are gonna try shit, that’s life. A percentage of those kids will have deeper issues, and cling on to the escape of it.

That’s real—nothing remarkable about it. You take your licks and move foward.

Hotel rooms- No degree of mental fortitude can keep you safe in a stretch of hotel rooms. After enough hours of disconnection, you get uh,,, pretty vulnerable. Susceptible to the nutty. The less fun stuff. Maybe you get super personal about the past, unload some shit you shouldn’t. I dunno.

I would rewrite that, but it’s still real.

You can’t do it all again, but you can start with what you’d change.Not in life, just on paper.

Also… the parenthesis man.

(hi there)

I’ve said it before, none of that is real. It only exists on paper. And I actually find it useful sometimes. This first showed up during the original noveltycrusade, maybe 20 years ago now. Not real, love doing it.

(talk at ya later!)

mmmm I think that’s it.

If I were skilled, I could have taken these nuggets and framed into something marketable… honestly , kinda more focused on doing it.

Large ships turn slow, there’s still time to change the road you’re on..so forth and so forth.

I am alive and I’m not finished. And I bother way less people than I once did, progress has different metrics. What is “now” is not forever, and neither are we. There may be a God, but we are so fucking far off from being correct on that issue (as my gut says). Someone needs to roast the church,,hard, for what they are. Forever, never stop roasting that construct.

And I think that’s it????

oh music,,,– I could talk about music for a long time, and books, I like stories, movies and the like. Weird stuff, odd,

mccabe.

Just because it’s not normal, the same interest in true crime, it’s never a matter of ” those mother fuckers are cool”—– just a matter of ” what would make someone think like that?”

I think that’s it.

Oh yeah- breeding. I’m unqualified to speak on this, but in my heart, I don’t consider our species to be responsible enough to weild that power. Maybe “you” are, I personally don’t think the group is. I could be wrong, but I notice a lot.

Prophecy cat– it’s really fun to talk like you know, even if you obviously don’t. Likely an element of the Old Testament. A crazy person, talking like they know. Fun… Causes genocide, but still a fun activity. “speak like you know”, about all the things beyond what we know. Not real, still fun. All speculation.

Apple sells a pencil for $100; it’s just a stylus. $100 because it’s proprietary . I own one. A $100 pencil. And Jesus wept …frowny face. A $100 pencil…

Chum in the water

Maybe the church shouldn’t be mocked top to bottom, scams should be, possibly those things intersect.

If I only typed once a week, I could proofread thoughts before they escaped.

Being alive is pretty terrifying though. None need to voice that obvious fact.

Unintentional comedy.

Quiet is nice too. Humbling.