On your shitty day.
Or a string of shitty days.
“when you absolutely, positively, have to kill every mother f***** in the room” Jackie Brown.
Sounds like bitching,and it is, But you don’t know who’s in the room with me.
I’m extremely picky with who I like.
Who I’ll listen to and why.
This next part is a hundred percent true.
“They don’t like me.”
Because I’m me, And it’s not hard to pick up on my energy.
It’s very obvious.
I’d rather be somewhere away from you.
So I become a target.
And I laugh about it and I detach, and eventually I make it to that special place, when no one is around.
Finally.
The cat looks up and gives a little chirp.
“Goddamn I’m glad to see you.”
I’m so glad that you’re here with me and you’re healthy and fed and containing years yet.
Got a long time left in you..
And it makes me want to be there.
Makes me want to have a long time left in me.
(ain’t so bad)
It’s not.
The ones I like have an easy nature.
A knack for curiosity and a care for the internals.
The boundless universe,inside each and every one of us..
The people I’m around,,they are not like that.
And I can forgive, and I can fake interest,, but they know..
They definitely do..
(sadness)
Grey skies motherfucker.
This slipstream of cycle and blistering vitals..
Caught yourself in a place, can’t get it out
(can’t kill people 😉)
Honestly wouldn’t want to..
My shit.
My fauxpium shit.
Microdose in the morning, micro at lunch, full dose the second the hour hand hits “five”.
One more around 9.
Bedtime.
Rinse and repeat..
(what are you thankful for?)
Ha!
I’m thankful that no one knows,just ye olde diary.
(you don’t think it shows?)
Who cares?
Who fucking cares?
They’ll never like me.
And that’s how I like it..
(it’s even worse when they’re happy about something 😂)
Seeing the Libs cry..
Talking all that shit.
They felt vindicated today, and I felt more disdain than usual..
Bleh..
(can you get somewhere pretty?)
I bet I can.
I need a shower.
And a sandwich 🥪.
Maybe I’ll try, say something nice.
I like how that feels.
I do.
Much prefer it..
(better than bitching)
Yawn..
You shouldn’t let the South rise again, I’m serious.
If you didn’t push the other side so hard,they wouldn’t have anything to fight, and they would get bored and shut up.
So…
In one way or another, most of us do it to ourselves.
I’ll try to come back and be better
dawn 