dawn

The more she drinks, the louder she turns the television..

She starts around 1:00 p.m..

MSNBC, CNN…

Then she calls her 75-year-old pal.. And they gossip and talk about the soap opera, like they matter.

Like they have any influence whatsoever..

Loud voices.

And I understand, that the people on television are simply doing their job.. But the job has become your personality, you speak how you would normally speak..

It’s disgusting to me.

Both sides.

Saying a few people’s name over and over and over and over and over and over..

It’s like…

What the fuck are you doing?

The fuck?

Making the people you despise more and more powerful, with each time you say their name..

I hate it..

It’s disheartening and I don’t want anything to do with it..

The group is your problem.

I get to look at the moon and the stars in the shadows of trees.

I get to look at ants and insects and all sorts of little bugs.

I get to lay with my cat.

I get to feed the outside strays.

I get to play.

I get to Portal, and explore all kinds of places within..

You guys are hard to look at.. Like Medusa or something..

It’s hard to watch you.

Whether or not I understand, it’s not important.

Whether or not I’m informed, It’s not important..

And who do you trust?

Who?

(great question)

There is ample evidence to trust neither..

Neither…

And it makes me sad..

(Not everything can make sense..)

But people yell like it does.

They proclaim.

They marginalized anyone that disagrees, and they talk down to them like they are lesser…

It makes me hate people..

And it’s a spiral.

A thief of joy..

THIEF.

I’m sorry