It’s hard to come down at night 👇
The hydroxyzine works, but it takes a good while.
But there’s still finger jitters and hyper nervous system.
I used to drink and jack off.
Working out of town, through the entire work week, I’d get to the hotel, cop a bottle and ginger ale…
Wake up with a headache, shake it off.
Rinse and repeat.
It’s different now…meh…
I don’t know why I’m thinking.
All this bull crap that I jot down… It never stops.
I honestly thought everyone was this way..
Later I thought that no one was this way.
I spotted a few.
Now the name of the game is balance, meds, diet and physical activity.
Fun time is sitting and playing and hanging out with Kevin virtually.
Designing my rig.
Thinking about it..
(You have moss growing all over you)
Jesus Christ I know it..
(it’s ON you…)
I know.
But I’m safe.
I make enough to balance all this .
(and your boss knows you’re a weirdo)
Yes.
They accept it and value me anyway..
(that is a recipe for stagnation)
A recipe for making someone else money…
(You think through all these things daily)
I know…
(Maybe you ought to shut the fuck up for a bit?)
I think I’ll go crazy.
It might be harder than it is now… Plus I’m standing up for what I believe in..
(a stupid blog that no one gives a fuck about)
No…it transcends comparison.
M is for that which is mine and I will grip it till I die.. This shit is mine.
(Fair enough cowboy..)
It’s still stagnant…
(it is in fact 🤔🤔)
I’m just waiting..
dawn 