dawn

I kinda like this girl from digital life

And she seems to like me,

So it’s terrifying

She’s almost ten years younger and she’s going places,

Education, a career focused on service to others.

I like her a lot,

Her course of study, her interest in human behavior

And shes’ got a calmness…

Ugh..

I shouldn’t get close to people.

I shouldn’t speak and I shouldn’t be heard.

I damned sure better not be with anyone, shouldn’t drop the walls and try anything. I’m not good enough and isolation is the only thing I deserve, I should be full time alone until I die. I’m such a piece of shit that struggleville is exactly where I deserve to be .

Because i hate.

I am only hate and I hate people with the burning fire of ten thousand hells.

Groups..

“Whenever two or more are gathered in my name”

Groups”

Group..

You are not part of an intimate relationship, you are on trial, by groups.

I digress.

She’s too good for me, and she comes from a real place of caring, and she’s going places.

And I told her I wish she could of met me 10 years ago,,

(She claims that you wouldn’t be you)

Yeah, got a sweet one here,

Also one that understands depression..takes medication for it,,

A very sweet girl..

Makes me feel bad about where I am ,I’m dumbfounded to the level of disconnection.

I left all of this.

I just left,

I’m not here anymore,

(And someone is calling for you)

She’s really sweet.

What a drag, my life is too much of a train-wreck to engage with anyone

That fuckin sucks!

Can’t believe I’ve arrived at this point,

I was honest with her and I think I eat up a females affection,it makes me feel so good, to hear someone say nice things to you. Blows up the ego,inflate,,,

I shouldn’t sell how whack my shit is, shouldn’t put any spin on it, shouldn’t even put it out there, and I wasn’t…

I just wanted to talk to someone.

I needed it, I still need it,,

So,,,

Priority is not harming anyone,

I’m a fuckin loser