(How many suicidal thoughts have you had today?)
It’s still early. You know, those aren’t what you think they are,right?
( how often have you had them?)
Every day, every single day since around 16. It’s not what you think, it’s not a reflection of a deep sadness or any poetic shit,, it’s just blood. It’s just a blink in thought, just a quick eyeball at the exit door. I know my uncle has them, my aunt, my mother, it’s just in the code. Not a danger, just something to be aware of.
( feels real sometimes)
Yeah but it’s just a thing, walk around with it long enough and you’ll know it for what it is. The urge to exit, in my specific case, is in the blood. Flawed DNA, flawed bloodline.
( you should be careful about writing it down)
Fuck that, no rules in here. If typing about anything helps, do it.
(Fair enough,,, you’re not really a suicidal person)
Nah, not this one. I do get the thoughts every day, but I also know it’s not real.
(Odd)
Yea, pretty odd
dawn 