And the legends do it without being awkward.
Subtle.
Not cheesedick or pity party.
I have so much to learn.
When someone in your orbit dies, you might catch yourself thinking
“Time is short”
(And how do you spend your time?)
Bitching…
Shame.
I feel shame about it.
Live to forget, show up to continue avoidance.
Stay high..
Bitch bitch botch.
Pish posh.
Criss cross’ll make ya…jump….jump…
I don’t know what’s right, I know what’s wrong.
And i don’t feel like venting any of that..
So Perhaps some fiction..
“As their love making reached its peak,and as the bodily foundations rocked back and forth,he behind her, her pushing back on him..
The gravity of the moon encouraged the pushing and pulling, no light in the room,only moonlight,, only slow and building physical expression.
Rhythms in tune.
No rush…
The experience arrived at climax, as it always does,, and he collapsed on her backside as a communication of satisfaction, a subtle way to express joy with his body
“You killed me.“
I was running and hiding, but you sought me out…
He went to kiss the back of her neck as she lay on all fours beneath him..
Well….
Bleh!!
I found my cumshot.
In the dark, completely by accident.
No way of determining distance or yield..
Had to be,,I dunno,, three or four feet.
I was paying compliment to the experience , I was falling down,collapsing .
Right into my own bodily fluids..
On my face.
On my own lips…
Maybe we should have used a nightlight, maybe I should have aimed better….
But you’re not really thinking in those last few moments, by evolutionary design.
And the Bible gets super mad about a man spilling his seed on the ground, like it’s a Sin.
I call BS.
You’re just a hater.
You don’t want anyone to be happy and you’re fucking mad when they’re coloring outside of your bullshit ass lines..
Fuckin, hater..
So if I collapsed in embrace, and if I attempted to express happiness in the retreating moments immediately after orgasm?
God looked down and said
*HERE… have a teaspoon of your own semen..punkass*
As I was wiping off my lips, of course I laughed.
“Fuck you too dude”
And maybe people get what they deserve..
It’s rare to have such a literal moment, a split second in time when the universe holds you by the hand,,,walks you over to a floor length mirror, points at your reflection…
“See this guy?….this guy is an asshole”
Am I?
AM I really that big of an asshole??
(Without a doubt)
“But she instigated, I had no plans of this scenario”
*shut your mouth…so I can wipe some semen on it*
DUDE! I was just trying to be nice, trying to be a sweetheart, is this how you’re gonna repay me??
* you should be isolated*
(You should be always alone and never be permitted to be close to another human being)
But…but I don’t deserve that.
(Yes you do)
I don’t.. and you don’t know my side, you don’t know my half of the past.
You don’t.
ANd you don’t fuckin know me..
I’m only human…
* the jury is still out on that*
Well shit…
Alright…hate me.. let the universe smear my own semen on my own face.
It’s fine.
I’m used to it..
It’s fine.
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This entry was a flop..my bad.. I’ll try later.
I get a lot of resistance from people at work, guys that can’t do anything about it.. people really do dislike me..
And it’s something about me.
It is me.
It’s something inside.
They hate me.
Everyone.
They all fucking hate me..
See this??
This is how mass shooters get made,, I’m better than any of that EVIL stuff,, but seriously.
If you’d stop being such a cocksucking dick munch to people, they’d probably want to kill less people..
Simple math.
Splash some semen on your face.
You fucking assholes..
Goddamit i hope it all blows up.
Sometimes I really do.
And I do not see any good in people..
(It’s all males)
It really is!!
Out in the world, all of my problems and punkass fuckwads fighting with me,,
It’s all males.
Little bitches.
Females are nice and we tend to treat each other with respect, no conflicts,, but males???
Males got a real fuckin problem with how I move.
There must be a reason for it.
dawn 