dawn

I wish I could talk to Jeremy through a sheet of glass.

Wish I could put him in a room and isolate him, then I wish I could purchase a lot of Heroin.

Then I wish I had the time to Detox him.

*that one is too far gone*

It hurts though,

We were pretty close.

(An extreme example of substances ruining you)

Yeah.

It’s not fair.

The whole thing isn’t fair.

He had worthwhile parts in him.

When the vibe was fun and things were happy.. and we had great musical chemistry, he’s probably the most solid rhythm player I’ve ever known,,

Heavier edge than me…

SO he’d play distorted chords and I’d try to find the symphonic melody,,

(With your little handful of scales lol…)

Nah.

We had chemistry.

It was really special..

I hate that his life played out like this.

I hate it.

(He understands a level of pain beyond what you can imagine)

Yea… like….the real pain..

Real.

Real ugly..

(Real sad)

Just like I care about the cats, I would try to save him.

I’d put him in a room and talk to him..

“Look man,,this is going to take a few weeks….I have purchased enough Heroin to get you through this..”

First…

We start with a large dose..

(Bring me a medium one while you’re at it..)

Ha-ha…funny…

Large dose.

Let him feel alright.

Let him have peace…

I am in control of the clock…

Hours later, an ever-so-slightly smaller dose… just a teensy weency amount less..

Let’s hang out, drink some water..

You stay on your side of the glass..

We’re going to hang out and talk.

And you’re going to be getting fucked up while we do it…

And I’m going to slowly pull the ripcord..

And we’re going to get to the goddamn root.

We’re going to explore why YOU do this..

And I’m just like you.. so there’s no judgment..

I’m going to carry you through this,brother..

Because that’s why I was put on Earth…

(Fun daydream..)

Reality is much more sad…

Drugs are….drugs are nothing and everything…

(So very dangerous…)

So dangerous…

I wish I had it all to do again..

(You don’t….as far as we can tell)

Hmmm…

Hmmm..

I still think I could save him..

I know I could, with the right scenario…

I know he would listen to me..