dawn

My guy comes around for his time,,

If he catches me sitting Indian style, he knows I’ll be there for a few minutes..and my favorite part?

He’s not there to interfere.

Not trying to take attention from whatever I’m doing with my hands.,

He just likes being near it..

There’s a good chance it drops my heartbeat BPM a few ticks..

I had some stress,, was thinking about a few hostiles at work, was gonna come in here and shit all over em, because they suck…

Then I was gonna shit on the public soap opera I get to watch you clowns live through yet again, I was going to remind you how people were acting over the last 5 years or so…

Then I was gonna think about death, and I was going to sit here and wonder if any of it matters…

—-but alas.

Little friend comes and sits down next to me,takes the hate ray I had pointed at the keyboard,he takes it and he turns it into something else.

Much nicer.

Much more friendly.

Hug your enemies.

Muh fuckin pastel,,that shit went from deep red to pastel green in like, 15 seconds.

Lil hate ray devourer.

Makes it impossible,,

Today there was a strong breeze, and i was watching the trees with the smaller leaves, they were all hanging on for dear life… almost like a grid, like fish scales,,, an army of little ones, getting the job done.

“We are your skin..we are here to absorb the sun and transfer life giving sustenance to the greater being that is ‘us’”..

Fuckin right on ,little leaves…

I saw the wind blow you so hard, and I was worried about you for a moment,,

“How can those little leaves play such an important role?”

(Unity)

Aye aye captain..

Working together, part of a larger body,

Drink drink drink the sunlight..

Leaves on trees should start having their own elections, and they should vote on what color they want to turn in the fall..

They should discuss the greater concerns of insect immigration,, they should do anything in their power to protect and nurture their seeds.

Buds, blossom,blooming brilliance basking benevolent. Natural as the rain, stretching hands up to the Sky god,giving praise and thanks…

You’d be in big trouble without the Sun..

(A child’s logic…)

So be it..

All you bitches down here, clawing at each other’s throats over nothing…

Take the Sun away,,,

See it go on strike for a single week…

Big trouble in Little Earth,,,

Real problems…..

(Where did you start???)

My animal friend,,sitting with me like he likes to do.

Being nearby, but not interfering….

(Daily failure??)

A nap caught me after work..I laid back and poof, maybe 2 hours, probably making up for lost sleep..

So of course, wide awake,,,probably will be for a while..

(Say something deep…)

Being around people is exhausting.

Sometimes it’s really tough to tune out their drama and bullshit. I feel like it takes a lot out of you, and I know you’re supposed to have empathy.

Patience.

Calmness and compassion….

(But?)

Sometimes I want to take a chainsaw to them…

Not because I want the gore, I just like,, I need them to stop.

I need them stop being what they are and always have been.

“Can’t you just be something else? For like, five minutes??”

Meh.. useless complaints.

Take it in stride.

Keep your head up and be grateful for what you have.

Like a furball typing companion, little fluffy guitar audience,,,

Grateful for what you have..