dawn

I’m looking at an inner city section 8 neighborhood, looks exactly like you’d imagine,, dumpy houses, “sketch” characters meandering about ..

Directly across the street, all the way up the block… Luxury apartments and new construction of more luxury apartments.

Progress or infection?

Neither seems right.

The systemically downtrodden and the uppity yuppie.

I don’t like either of the scenarios.

Endless growth or the historically disenfranchised being forced out by progressive cancer.

How the fuck could anyone say I’m sad to look at? You ever look the fuck around? You ever pop your little peepers at all this?

Fuckin overwhelming man,the whole thing, freaks me the fuck out,, super unfair,no shit, life isn’t fair. Coupled with condescending motherfukers on the internet, telling you what you should and shouldn’t care about,, in love with themselves, growing an audience of the desperate…

I hate it all.

A lot of days,,, not all of the days,,, but so often,, I don’t notice anything sweet, anything redeeming, anything that nurtures optimism…

I just see “you motherfukers”.

Over and over,year after year,, more and more of you motherfukers.. bleh,, brings nausea..

If you want to talk about “hope” or “the greater good”… Mmmmmm.. how bout you just go watch my little ponies, or color,or read about the care bears?

It’s so God damn ugly out there sometimes. That’s what we are. Of course people would prefer escapism,of course they would lose faith or any “give a shit”

Just look at it man,, where the fuck are my headphones? What can I focus on to get ten minutes away from all you motherfukers?

I’m exhausted.

Not by my job, not by my current existence. You. You mother-fuckers are exhausting and I have every bit as much a right to exist that you do.

Fucking cancel me🤣🤣