Mainlining that putrid sludge…
So worked up..drink In hand…
You’ll be dead before long at all..
Why give a shit?
Why let them work you up?
It’s foolish.
Little flakes of snow fall outside, and it’s the first snow for years ..
But you don’t even want to look at it.
Because someone in power is pissing you off, and you gotta get on the phone, talk to your loser ass friends that don’t have anything better to do .
“can you BELIEVE this?”
Hey stupid, it’s snowing,, it’s beautiful.
Little flakes of frozen water are falling from the fucking sky…
But you.. you’d rather sit there, rather sit with your drink.
(sit there and die…)
Slowly..but yeah…
Sit there and die.
And be mad.
Let them win…
It’s foolish…it’s a foolish way to be…
Makes me sad.
It’s really hard to watch….
So…
(got anything positive ?)
Um..day one, adding Wellbutrin to Lexapro..like.. I noticed it.
I noticed energy.
Something kinetic.
And I took less fauxpium, and I smoked less cigarettes..
Just one day in..but I felt something different…
And that’s hopeful.
So it’s good.
Good step.
I’m sorry that the world is crazy…
The snow is really pretty 🌨️
Under the streetlights in this nothing place..
This nowhere..
It’s really pretty..
I have the stray cats setup, a dry spot and TWO heating pads..
Some food.
Some non frozen water 💦.
They’ll be alright tonight…
And so will I 💙
dawn 