dawn

All those motivational videos,posts, I keep seeing this one phrase pop up.

“Don’t tell people your plans”

Point your brain at that for a moment,

-because you’ll be posturing (which makes you a douche)

-they’ll actively try to derail whatever you’re trying to do, because people are horrible

-they’ll downplay your identity and capability, because people are haters and always will be children..

Don’t tell people your plans…

Let’s view it from the evil.

The Unabomber worked alone, Osama Bin Laden did not.

Bin Laden had to tell people his plans, otherwise we wouldn’t have been able to roll into the Middle East with dicks swinging..

Don’t tell people your plans….

Tell people your daydreams?

“I’ve got this stone, right here in my fist, and I know exactly what to say, I know just the right words to smash your teeth out”

Emotional daydreams lololol.

Don’t tell people your plans…

What if you’ve got no plans?

What if you only have instinct and the things you feel?

If this fucker hasn’t broken me down, you won’t either..

I can say it again if you need me to..

“If this fucker hasn’t broken me down, you won’t either”

Don’t forget where you came from, living on whim alone. Nothing to be proud of, but you still survived so ….

Here we are.

I will stretch, I will breathe deeply and I will crack my knuckles…

Which card next?

It’s an exciting part of being alive and you don’t have to fit into any mold.

Any mold at all.

Not if you are enough for you and not if you earned it.

That’s where I’m going to fall asleep tonight.

I’m going to remember that.

And I will keep laughing at your world,

Not harming , but definitely laughing.

(What makes you upset?)

That’s a fun topic.

Bullet point that stuff lololol

There’s blank

and blank and blank,

And people really don’t like this one.

Time ,death ,money, connection and psychology

(Nature)

I do love the natural, brutal as it may be.

There is the physical form, your body and everyone else’s body.

There is love and the deep comfort you feel sleeping next to someone, having a head rest on your shoulder.

There is the unhealthy and the difficult task of seeing. Knowing when things are bad.

There is work,

Digging holes and making effort and fighting the good fight.

There is trying to find middle ground with the people you like.Fuck the rest of em, but if you like someone, there is the desire to meet them in the middle.

There is the solidity of family, if you’re lucky.

There is walking with no enemies, if you can do that little trick. All the people that wronged you, or motherfucked your name under the breath.

There is the death of gossip, battle of opinion yawn yawn yawn,,

Who gives a fuck?

Who gives a fuck what you think?

“I ain’t never heard of ya”

Who cares lolololol.

There is the machine that you are.

Takes about a day, maybe 12 hours.

I can get over anything in about 12 hours, which ain’t too shabby.

Ahhhh,, end on a high note.

Feeling fine, going on feeling strong.

Because it’s all in the mind, so who cares?

There is the sound of the crickets outside, there are the stars,galaxies and nebula…

All this? All this down here???

This existence is the ad you have to sit through before you watch an internet video. That’s all it is.

Therefore…

Nothing.

Nothing you or I say really matters.

Much less, less than you telling me about how great you are.

Yawn.

Not interested.

Night fuckle.

Fuckle fick.

Say the same things, directly to the eyeball. The exact same things, in heaven as on Earth.

Smirk at that.

It came to me, the answer came to me..

How can you tell me there’s NOTHING?

No Christian god?

Perhaps.

No Muslim ? No allah ?

No Moses or shiva or Buddha ?

No reincarnation,no ascension,

No devil, no blood of christ, no bride of christ,,,,

Maybe.

Maybe maybe maybe..

Different styles playing the same song, maybe.

Maybe it’s the fucking matrix, who knows?

At the core I believe in one truth

” you decide”

Fuckin A right brother,

You decide.

You decide what moves you, you decide what eats at you and steals your sleep.

You.

You decide what makes you furious, you decide where you invest your heart, you decide where and how you will give your time..

YOU.

With that logic, you are free.

You are not bound by any chains and you can glide like no others.

All in the mind.

Wish you well, hope good things happen to you, I’ll be over here. Basking in my good luck.

Are you afraid of dying?

I think a better question is

“What would you miss the most?”

This.

I’d miss this.

And music and cats.

I would miss it.