Sometimes I wonder where the feeling of impending doom comes from. To what evolutionary purpose does that serve? survival? A panicked critter is an alive critter? I get it, but at some point,jesus.
ever felt it?
walls closing in, panic and tension over shit you can’t see. Time?Uncertainty.? All of your bad experiences on repeat.
minding your own business and bam! Instincts of desperation.Overwhelming fear, completely internalized.
reverse skydiving would require shooting people out of cannons from the ground and having planes with open doors catch them in the sky.
Sounds a bit risky..
Useless.. fuckin useless headspace. Such a waste of time,,,it settles in though. Definitely. Gloom clouds, useless..fuck you too, useless.Any defense, useless.
The religious might say “God’s telling you that you’re an asshole and you don’t live right”
Sometimes I wish. I wish it was that easy 🤣 Both of those things are true.
but
It’s really good to be alive and have the luxury of fretting over shit that doesn’t matter. None of this. See these walls? Doesn’t matter. See what I thought up? nothing., doesn’t matter, it’s gone, just like that, bye-bye. Just a passing thought, all of them, memories. poof mother-fucker, gone.
nothing.
negativity?
(it doesn’t do the good you think it does)
no, it doesn’t. It’s good to be alive and free.Most of us are very fortunate.
(and still bitch)
Human, man,dawg, Just some human shit. Bitching is part of it.It’s the majority of the entertainment industry, bitching about this or that,, those people are soooo good at it,Just know it sucks to be,try to understand . Even creatively bitching is still just bitching.
( Critical analysis. creatively bitching is entertaining,and sometimes useful . Shines lights on fucked up shit,gets the word out)
mmmm close, yes I .. well no,,, critical analysis is looking for flaws. I don’t like thinking about groups, cause fuck ’em.
( i hate the fuck out of you sometimes)
how do I get good?
(you shut the fuck up, that’s what you do,)
but i don’t wanna
(do it. No one needs a window into this)
that makes me want to do it more..
(please, do it for me, just put the keyboard down.Please shut the fuck up)
But I have so much fun in here! bullshitting around, no rules,
I’ve found the secret. ” you can say anything you want, in the entire world, as long as you don’t say it to no one”
(people dude.. you’re supposed to go out there and interact with people. Bullshit around with living people.)
I don’t wanna
I can’t bullshit with them like I bullshit with you. I can’t just unload on strangers, like some kind of crazy person.
(you don’t unload on people, you establish meaningful connections founded in values. Not sensation)
sounds complicated
(it is)
yeah….
How about you not tell me what I can do?
(time’s running out on you, fucker)
I know, I’ve moved from regret to fear. In this bitch with the terror, hand full of stacks.
(clean up this headspace. it’s filthy)
you’re actually right on that one, I’ve missed you.
(shut the fuck up, shut your fingerface, Stop wiggling those god damn fingers)
alright but only because I want to.
dawn 