Her story was the story of her parents,
Just like everybody else..
The scenario of conception and what was at the time.
So you had a local guitar player and a girl in the crowd.
Black Sabbath tribute band, He had the Iommi parts down to a science.
She was smitten, and she was very beautiful and very crazy.. the cycle of repeating dysfunction.
Their passion was great and thus, a daughter was conceived.
She used sex as a weapon.
A psychological method of maneuvers.
A human male is a simple thing, and she could dangle it out, make him salivate, make him roll over and growl,, get his money, work himself all hours, give up the guitar.
And he was a victim of hope.
Hoping it could work out, hoping that the love they shared could weather the storm..
Incompatible is incompatible.
If those gears don’t line up?
At best ,it’s a clean separation, that is the absolute best case scenario.
When people realize it.
When you understand that you’re fucked. Knowing things can’t work.
Maybe it’s sad. Sad but hopeful.
I digress.
There was a love story of characters, then, 30 years later, there was another love story, very very very similar.
And there are emotional casualties, and there is gratitude for the lesson and for the fact that no one died and no children were made.
You will lament.
You will look back and wish it were different, wish beyond wish.
You wish it didn’t play out like that.
And for a while you take the blame, because that’s part of it. That’s part of how that particular creature engages in warfare. So ugly, hurt whatever is under your identity. Hurt you in ways that you didn’t know you had.
It hurts to look at or think back on.
Such a goddamn train wreck.
So much feeling and want, so much hope and happiness,,,
No match for that one, no matter how strong…
After years you understand it better.
Hopefully your lesson sinks in.
Whatever wisdom you can walk away with….
“It was both”
It was.
And I’m glad it’s over.
No matter what, until the time I die,
So ugly, so painful,,,
(Does no good lingering,fool)
Yes, very foolish.
That’s a foolish thing to do.
Tried so hard..
(You did)
Two people, a victim to the scenario and backstory, the genetics and the childhoods.
Tried.
(You did)
(Don’t spend time in the thought.. you glanced, now keep moving)
I have bigger problems…
(You do.)
You’re right…
That’s why we talk, you’re absolutely right on this one thing.
(Good enough)
Alright,,,
Stretch…crack your neck,,
We got it out
(Yes)
dawn 