If I read a story about a mother losing her schizophrenic son to alcohol, at 27?
I actually am sorry.
And I’m sorry that someone had to live through that.
So just for imagination…
Picture the end of the universe .
Picture every person that lived,meeting again.
And picture all their stories being shared,,
I’d see that lady and I’d think
“sure…that could happen”
But during this lifetime,,all we have to go off of is “right now”
And people have their stories.
That is not an American thing or a modern thing..
Just a human thing..
(and why do you talk to yourself, on paper?)
Because I can’t talk to others.
Not about the things I want to talk about. And no one knows me.
(and you know yourself?)
Better than I used to.
Come a long way from that.
(we’ve had some pretty serious fights)
Said terrible, terrible things…
(sticks and stones 💪)
But words will never harm me..
(why did you comment?)
Real empathy. For a brief moment. Thought about all the shit you and I go through,
(and someone that couldn’t handle it as well)
Lol … “As well”
(the chef up in the kitchen “wtf is a sammich?”)
Balance ♎⚖️
Balancing all of this.
The terror of existing in the real world, and the endless abyss that exists inside of yourself…
(peach Crown Royal 👑?)
Just a nip..
My medicine made me sleep too late, so I have to adjust my sleep schedule…. again..
(going to start detoxing in the morning? 😂)
Nah..
I left a little hit for the morning 🌄
To get the gears moving.
(You are nauseatingly honest sometimes)
I know.
I like that part.
It feels refreshing.
If a cop pulls you over and asks if you know why he pulled you over…
Shit man… Just say you were speeding. Take your sunglasses off and look him in the eye.
“man, I’m sorry. I wasn’t paying attention and when I saw you I looked at my speedometer”
That sure is refreshing.
(instead of pitching some bullshit 🐂)
For sure.
Fuck it man.
I remember taking lithium, riding around on the Durham bus system, aimlessly.
For days and days, listening to music in my headphones..
It was a long time ago, but I remember it..
(And you don’t want to give up your hands)
And I don’t want to gain a bunch of weight.
(What is it, that you actually want?)
To be well.
Normal .
Like all the other people I see.
(you’ll never be that)
I know 😔.
I’ve made peace with that 👍
I like cats, They have a sincere calming effect.
(we know 👍)
dawn 