dawn

Eventually they stabbed him in the ribs with a spear, so he might bleed out.

Which implies toughness.

Admirable traits.

I remember hearing that the megazord would combined all of their vehicles, it would merge into one greater being.

All the colors.

But we weren’t allowed to watch that stuff, cuz it had magic, and visual representations of demons?

I guess.

There was a story about the symbol of the fish, when Christians were an oppressed people and they had to be secretive with their worship,

One person would draw a curve in the sand with their foot.

If the person they were with was a believer, they would draw the other curve.

Creating the image of a fish in the sand.

And that’s what you see on bumper stickers.

Image of the fish.

Because it was a hush hush religion, so real that it was dangerous, You would be punished if anyone found out who your God was.

And I mean, ultimately, You really can’t go wrong with tuna. Just as far as fish are concerned.

I found a restaurant once on a pier in Virginia Beach, they would cube tuna and cook it like a Philly cheese steak .

Think Philly cheese steak, but with tuna.

Delicious.

I think it’s delicious and apparently other people do too, so we take all of them out of the ocean.

We fuck up dolphins trying to get to tuna,

(whatever it takes)

Whatever it takes for delicacy. Whatever it takes to please our individual tongues..

Because I want it.

Now, now, now, now, now, now.

Fuckin want it.

And there’s too many sermons to remember in the Bible, too many passages too many parables too many metaphors,

I remember some.

The parable of the field worker.

I do not recall a veiled life lesson regarding mankind’s insatiable appetite.

Regarding consumption.

And I think being mad at successful people is a waste of time, but just looking at the species….

Does it ever gross you out?

Do you ever feel any shame for what we are?

We are very special, I absolutely know it’s true, but the way we do things sometimes..

Makes me really sad.

I don’t want to hurt dolphins.

I don’t want to burn rainforests.

I don’t want to enslave people I’ll never for luxuries that I don’t need.

But we do it anyway, and I guess you’re supposed to come to peace with that.

And it’s tough.

So you do drugs.

(not street drugs)

Still drugs

(you need to stop taking that stuff)

I do.

It helps a lot in the daytime but something weird happens when I’m trying to unwind for sleep.

Feels uhh,,,

(endless)

Yes.

I’m glad I’ve gotten away from alcohol , but this one has run it’s course.

(take a marijuana edible tomorrow. No kratom)

We’ll see.

(a life of service would be better)

I serve the dollar.

I grind with everyone else.

Like a good boy, like a good taxpayer . I do what they tell me I’m supposed to do. And the gutter is on the other side of that transaction, and I fought it for years.

Now it is the salt lick bland day in and day out, just like they told me.

Just like they fucking told me.