dawn

Is it better to isolate, or unintentionally manipulate?

If you do it,it seems some part of you knows that you’re doing it.

To what end?

Say whatever it takes to get people to like you,to listen.

Try to be what a girl would want.

Make yourself sound really nice .

Make yourself seem special.

It means you’re full of shit, full of fucking shit with nothing to offer the world, or a single person.

You should probably kill yourself, because it will always be this way.

And you’ll never be anything but a bullshitter.

Nothing worth time.

Not a second,not an hour,not a day.

A complete waste of life.

That’s what you feel like.

(alright….soooo…what’s next?)

Next is, you stop hurting people. You stop taking emotion from them, you stop trying to get under their skin, like a parasite.

Take time for yourself.

Don’t bullshit yourself.

Be honest..

(big word)

Don’t.

Manipulate.

People.

You’ll never have it together unless you can get past that.

Nasty trait.

Nasty psychological thing.

No honor…

And if I say to her..

“I’m sorry,I don’t feel it”

Then she’ll suggest we keep it surface, enjoy the physical.

But she’ll use that to pull me in.

And I’ll be trapped.

Best to isolate.

Best to stay the fuck away from people.

Admit you’re garbage,try to grow out of it.

Get sober.

Don’t end up like Jeremy Key.

Be honorable.

Don’t fuck around.

Don’t hurt anybody with your weirdo childhood and genetics 🧬.

Isolation is better.

(for a time)

I know, can’t hide forever..

I know.

The Eye saw me.

I was just walking by and it hit me.

I’m really sorry.

About the time,

It’s despicable, taking time like that, under the falsehood of purity 🪷

Acting like it’s something pure..

(pure bullshit)

I know.

I’m aware.

And there’s your honesty..

I gotta pee