And just because one guy is mad at the church, it doesn’t mean that the church is wrong.
Or God .
Or the lack of a God.
Either way, you’re flying through space and one line of thought says
“it doesn’t matter”
And another line that says
“it matters more than anything.
This eternity.
And this is your soul”
And whether you are designed to or not, you still output love.
Or hatred.
Or mockery, or judgment, or slandering, or compassion, or fury and rage, or understanding and patience.
Give love, give hate, hide from all.
Three basic choices.
For serving everything or for serving nothing at all.
And I’m not the one, Not the one two throw stones..
Just bitter, I’m bitter and wounded and it’s a very old wound,
And I did LSD as a late teen.
Now I’m over 40, and I just now feel like I’m coming back from it .
No jive 😂
I hate that people get trampled, And I know that I was trampled, by the group, and that’s what makes me so well aware…
I hate that that happens.
But you can damn near set your watch by it…
People are good, people are bad, people in groups are always bad.
There’s an agenda.
For whatever reason.
It’s the exact opposite of flying through space and screaming”none of this matters”…
It’s screaming
“All of this matters, and I matter too because I’m a part of it”
(which sounds like a lot of work)
Oh boy does it…
Seems like that would take a lot out of you, worrying about other monkeys flying through space.
(those monkeys might kill you)
That’s a valid point.
They might also tell you that you’ll live forever and someone is watching everything, and you need to give them money to perpetuate this understanding…
So….
It’s a lot.
I don’t expect answers, from anyone.
I just like that I can type it out, it makes me feel on a very personal level, And if I do feel defeated… Because it’s not any good and therefore I am not any good….
Then I’m a bitch.
Just like music 🎵
If I continue to love and play music with the ABSOLUTE understanding that there is no rock star life in store…
Then I’m free.
Free to be terrible.
Free to write badly.
Free to admit and confess to such terrible choices
Free.
And that makes it pure…
For me.
So pure that It doesn’t matter if you hate me.
Pure …
I hope I expressed this thought well, but it’s all right if I didn’t 👍
dawn 