When i would try to meditate, i would visualize a neon yellow highlighter, transformed into a gas.
A floating cloud of bright green fog in my mind, no wind in the room,,never-ending yellow/green bing rips.
Visualize the breath…
Then i would let it come closer to me, Let myself inhale through the nose,hold it,, exhale slowly.
Over and over, a cloud filling up your lungs and exiting,
Focus on your breath.
Think of nothing else at all, the point is to turn your mind off for 5 gosh darn minutes.
Nothing else,
Just your breath.
A little thought will crawl in like an insect ,it will waltz right to the forefront of your mind and you will say hello and you will watch it leave.
Just like that.
You don’t fight it, you don’t say “I’m gonna beat you!!”
You Don’t beat yourself up for thinking…
You just nod.
Back to the breath,
Giant, neon yellow/green cloud into the lungs…giant neon yellow/green cloud out of the lungs..
If you can get 3 solid minutes, completely alone and in complete silence…
The bitch ass carnival in your head gets its volume turned down.
For a little while.
Lit-el why-el
But, like everything else, it seems to require consistency.
Sticking to something.
Make it a practice, a habit, not getting distracted and wandering the fuck off,
No..
Thinking….
For just a few minutes.
No talking.
No listening.
No engaging with a fucking thing.
No nothing.
(I kinda like the sound of crickets)..
Not thinking about a single noun.
(They kinda make a chorus and you can zone out and stare through it.)
Just green highlighter breath, in,,,out,
Correct but comfortable posture…
(They rub their legs together, that’s how they make noise,with their fuckin legs man!, making all that racket,,, chances are good they’re tryina holla at a honey)
Completely calm, breath in, breath out,,,your mind notices an itch but you let it pass,,,
*did somebody order a pizza? I got pepperoni and black olives??*
Highlighter breath in,,,,highlighter breath out..
(It really only takes two crickets, because it’s such a weird sound,,,not really a tone,,more of a frequency..two crickets can fill up your stereo hearing)
Calm,, present…at peace and free of worry…highlighter green cloud in,,hold it,,,,annnnd out…
*somebody’s gonna have to pay for this pizza*
(Not good for you at all, unhealthy food choices..)
I’m not listening, la la la la la I’m meditating,,I’m not listening to your shit…
*as a pizza guy, I really enjoy talking about the Middle East, and spouting a pizza guy opinion*
(I just like Crickets,, I like the sound of em)
Kill me, jesus ratfuck , somebody just kill me,ah!!! Fuck fuck fuck fuck cuff fkc fuc jfkc fun c…
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dawn 