dawn

I didn’t choose him.

And that’s why it’s real, why it was.

And I can throw my memory back, and I can remember him.

Us.

I remember the blizzard and how he balanced on my shoulder while I climbed the hill.

To the camper, with no power.

Sleeping bag.

Wild black berries in the summer, burger king shifts, all the animals outside.

There was a neighborhood far below,and one night I heard a domestic dispute between two drunks, and she was yelling..

Then she stopped,

Then she was crying

“you hit me..”

And I was on the mountain trail,high above everything.

With no phone, intermittent power, a trash acoustic and the best cat I’d ever know..

Sometimes when I get in those moods, like everything’s fucked and there’s no good part In the world..

I’ll think about Monster.

I’ll pinpoint memories and it brings him back to me ..

And I got all the fight in the world.. every bit of spirit I ever possessed..

Monster man.

Heaven sent.

Or from another dimension..

Whichever you prefer.

Shit across lifetimes and sent to me,at the exact time I needed him..oh my

Monster..

I still love you.

I always will 😢