Because my process is so undisciplined.
Even if you start out with the intention of building something, you get lost in the details.
Working on the windows before there’s a foundation, etc..
Wish it wasn’t that way.
Wish I could sit down and build.
All I can do is touch flow, can’t hold or channel it.
And if Solomon asked God for wisdom,,I would ask for discipline.
And you can’t control shit until you’re able to control yourself.
So I have to settle for the amateur and juvenile.
I’m only allowed to touch it, and only periodically..
Makes me really sad but I don’t feel like being sad or reactionary .
You can wish.
No harm in that.
Boundaries are cool too 😉
dawn 