I might be waking up pissy because of my Kratom usage. I sleep deeper but I sleep less.
I’ve said before, the feeling resembles an opiate but on the plus side, I haven’t been drunk in almost a month.
You become aware that you’re trading one habit for another, and that shit is expensive on the daily, still, no booze.
So whatever.
It’s not like I care anyways.
So,, not the worst substitute, but I’m aware, the habit can’t continue forever.
Doesn’t quite feel like a legit “habit”,
Think being fucked up is a habit.
Becauuuuuusssseee,,
You can’t stand being clear headed.
Life sucks so hard that it’s better to be cloudy,
And the Kratom does do that..
So let’s pro’s and cons this motherfucker.
CONS—-
Opiate similar-
Expensive-
Less sleep
More desire for tobacco
Pins your pupils which makes it potentially noticeable to coworkers..
The extract has a bad taste,,
Doesn’t make you funny or what I would call “sharper”
PRO’s——–
No drinking-
Appetite curbing-
Pretty nice feeling–
Relaxed while dosed-
Slightly carefree (which is an illusion)
Quasi-natural— not like you’re out there doing street drugs.
The elevation is totally different from street drugs,,
Feels uh,,,, manageable,, though other dangerous things do too…
I just fuckin hate being clear headed, hate being faced with reality – makes me want to punch you in your fucking face.
Mostly because I know you’re right..
And that’s a drag,, deep bummer….
But I put it on paper, not out into the air I share out there.
dawn 