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ANd if I said to my oldest friend

“You’re an angry drunk..and I’ll see ya later”.

Sounds condescending , sounds like some mic drop shit you have to say in an argument ..just to win.

Sounds like you’d abandon an old and complicated friendship ,just to get the death blow.

(An old and complicated friendship)

Between old and complicated friends.

Yo Holmes..

Imma junkie-Saurus-Rex.

I got one day and I wanna kill ALL these motherfuckers..

But that’s not what we do.

That’s not how we behave.

(If you had a chance to rephrase it?)

I would say…

“Brother man… you can’t unload that shit you’re carrying on me..I can’t carry any more..I’m at capacity ya see”

But.. have you the bravery and the stones,, and I’ll help you look at it.

I’ll be there with you as you zero in on the root…

Ya can’t do that.

You can’t scream at people and expect no reaction.

Love runs deep, and makes it through the shit.. outlives the fucked up stuff..

But look man…

I ain’t your punching bag.

ANd I’m also not an echo chamber for your own victimhood.

I’m not into that.

We’re adults.

We got cats to feed and vices to deal with.

I’m not interested in arguing .

Not on some comparison shit, just on some “I’m not going to do it” shit.

We some circle walking motherfuckers.

You get a few cards, then you play them.

And that’s it.

Systems are what they are.

Coulda been born as an organ transplant slave,, coulda been starving somewhere, coulda followed a god that asked you to strap bombs to yourself..

(Coulda been a baller, a shot caller, twenty inch blades..on the Impala)

I’ve been high for a year, and before that I was steady drunk and high for years,,,and years and years and years..

The only person it damages is you, and anyone dumb enough to give a shit about you..

(Makes your work better..)

Tough call…makes you think it’s better.

But ultimately it’s self medication.

SO if you’re not going to kill yourself, you should probably quit your bitching.

Bums out the room.

Ya see?

Kills vibe.

Screaming to the world , yelling about how wrong the world did ya..

It did.

In some ways.

We’re also huge assholes,,so there’s that too..

I

Hate

Being clear minded.

Get restless as fuck.

Irritable to the point of hostility.

But it can be done.

Get you a diary homie.. I’d show up for it.

I’d make an effort.

You can dump your heart out, just don’t expect anyone to want it on the face..

Thumbs up emoji…

(You’ve had quite a run with it…)

Oh, if only they knew.

If only…

But that’s alright, they can suck my dick too.

Double thumbs up emoji..

I’ll be here if you settle down.

If you level off.

Try not to yell at your friends man.