dawn

It might be the answer, “chatting”,

Not so much with a blank piece of paper or a comment section, but with a real life talking monkey.

Not a group, not really my thing, but one on one can be nice.

Rhythm and flow and a particular personality type.

Receptive and encouraging.

Perhaps not on principles, people disagree on things and they’re supposed to, but allowing speech to happen.

I don’t think that’s an exclusively American thing.

I know it helps.

And uh..

I don’t think it should be transactional, not into paying a person to listen, not really into being heard at scale.

But in a conversation, when things are nice and they’re clicking and there’s a back and forth, isolation cure.

Has nothing to with status, or agenda, or gain.

Just, the act of.

And you can do it on the internet, and you can meet people and have conversation without motives.

And you can be honest, without dumping your shit and being a burden.

(Picky partner)

Absolutely.

A kind and empathetic ear can return a kind and empathetic ear, without being a fucking drag or a judgment monstrosity.

They’re just rare.

It is a rare person, that I can glide with.

She might really be an empath, a real one, I don’t know..

I don’t really know what that is.

But I like talking to her, and there’s no weirdness or creep shit, I don’t think it’s anything , I’m not trying.

But it’s good to talk to a real, living human.

You can be real.

You don’t have to be full of shit.

And you don’t have to be a fucking drag either.

Just a nice, soft, flow.

Back and forth.

“I feel this way because of xyz, I see that you feel that way and I’m curious why you feel that way”

Let’s talk…

It might be the cure.

Not this group bullshit and not this solo bullshit, not whatever bullshit artist garb you like to dress up in,, just a chat.

No taking, no giving, no effort,

Just uh,, a natural thing..

Makes me think that I might be wrong, about all of it.

And it does feel good to connect with another human, as you’re falling through space.

The group is too big to worry about, I get tired of playing with them.

One is cool.

One on One is cool.

The rest of you motherfuckers just wear me out.

I understand how wrong I am.

Should probably lay off the true crime ,lol..

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Lemme recap interests..

I like comedians that strongly criticize humanity.

Learning about serial killers that strongly disrupt humanity.

Cults that strongly manipulate humanity.

Wars that show the worst in humanity.

Apocalypse stories that paint the end of humanity…

Wonder if I’m leaving anything out…

🤔🤔🤔

(Space)

Ah yes, I love daydreaming about leaving humanity..

I don’t understand what it is to be a person,, my interests suggest that I have a beef with “humanity”.

So…

How do yo fix that?

Is there a pill? A plant? A spiritual ritual? A silent retreat? A third eye pry?

What is it??

I’m being real.

What is it?

(Yellowstone would end us..)

I know, i know a volcano would do it,,

But it would kill all the cats and dogs and trees and ants and blades of grass and horses and goats and wheat and moss and clovers and tulips and llamas and ladybugs..

All that stuff I like..

I don’t want a volcano to kill us.

Or an asteroid.

Or nuclear winter..

I don’t think I want that.

Evolution makes sense, intelligent design is more complicated, evolution could also be mechanic of intelligent design. Evolution in that context doesn’t make as much sense.

An anthill resembles veins, highways resemble internal biology, the artist paints himself.

Man made spam parade,

Raspberry beret,

Electric synapses relentlessly firing..

Being a human is difficult.

I don’t cry for what is lost,

Cry for what remains to be lost.

Feel for others.

Rebel injustice but silently,,rrreal quiet about it.

Know the score..

Keep your fuckin mouth shut..

Get to the meat of the matter.