Those Christians really do believe in some crazy stuff.
SO let’s just discard that , for the moment. No judgements upon people or belief…
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A long time ago I read an article in a popular science magazine.
And the title of the article read
“Wired for spirituality”
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It had a picture of a brain during an MRI (magnetic resonance imaging),
It showed portions of the brain highlighted and busy.
Synapses firing…
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During prayer/meditation..
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long story short.
The brain lights up.
When a high level monk meditates, when a high level Christian prays,when a high level satanist sacrifices baby animals.
It lights up.
The little cars on the little streets in your head start driving down the highways faster, more of them leave their homes and there’s no traffic jams.
No stop lights.
No collisions ..
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It’s wired that way.
ANd nobody knows why.
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There is no explanation as to why you desire to see above all this.
Or beyond it.
Uh…
I’ve talked about doing LSD and some of the things I’ve felt and experienced during those years.
The good and the bad,,
There’s a connection there.
It’s fuckin around with some part of the brain that so strongly desires magic. Desires something more than this and some level of wisdom, perverted as it, desires a better nature.
A Christian would say “you’re born into sin”. ANd you felt but a moment of heavenly cleanliness. You were able to escape this swamp for one ,brief,vulnerable moment,
And it brought you to your knees…
(As it should)
Indeed.
As it should.
Whatever that other world is, and whatever risk you took to travel out there,,,
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It’s meant to be examined and pondered.
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If my life is only a day job, I’d have to kill myself.
If my life was without the noticing of love, I’d have to kill myself.
If there was no magic, if there was no point..
(Hypocrite)
I know.
I use that phrase as a crutch,all the fucking time.
“There is no point to this”
“None of this matters”
That’s a mental crutch, that’s all it is.
Some infant shit..
I’m getting off topic,,
(You? Never)
Sigh..
Exhale.
If I felt things beyond what I can express,,
If I typed a thousand pages, I could never get it out correctly.
If I was an awesome painter, I couldn’t get it to look right.
If I were a brilliant musician, I could never make it sound right.
I understand why people seek God, I understand why a monkey seeks to be in His presence.
(View it as an atheist)
I don’t understand, I don’t understand why people seek to stimulate those parts of the brain.
If you go in,, believing in nothing?
Then maybe you’re just there for the good time.
If you meditate, maybe you recognize what in the god damn fuck it means to get a grip on your own brain.
(Serious business)
No shit..serious business…
I envy them in a way.
I really do.
I wish I could believe in the God of the Hebrews, or whichever God is bankrolling televangelists ,
I’d even try the God that makes you want to put on a vest and explode your enemies in his name..
(You’d never wear a vest)
Yea, A bit high class for me..
So….
With a sober mind you ask yourself.
“What is the point?”
Is there only science and nature?
If so, what’s all this bullshit in these brains.?
What da fuk wrong wit em?
Why Dey do dat?
(It’s like you’re asking why people feel things)
No.
I feel things too.
I’m not confused about that.
I’m confused about why we have to look up at the sky, and how does that make it OK to kill our enemies?
Why would you even want to have enemies?
Why would you let someone eat your time and emotion?
Concepts beyond my understanding.
(Focus on what ya know, work outwards)
Good advice.
Logic dictates everything.
It’s alright to be confused when you’re trying to tackle complicated things.
Very natural.
I hate how belief and money have become intertwined, and if your God was real, I think He’d be furious with you.
Personally.
I think it’s perverted.
And it has traveled through history, stronger than bloodlines, genes…
Stories.
It would feel nice to feel connected to something, and to have purpose.
But I’d throw myself off a building if I woke up as one of them.
So.
Weird spot.
Probably useless thoughts,
I think it’s going to take a week or two for me to level out.
It’s just part of it.
Meh, restless cranked up.
Uncomfortable.
Go find God
Be nice to people and animals, stop suggesting omnicide.
Easy enough.
dawn 