dawn

Maybe Dustin will come in with a pistol tomorrow and blast me in the fucking face.

It would be a fitting end, in some weird way. I realize..

Realize that we play a game at a high level of thought. Just being aware of it.

I have taken his power.His position is jeopardized.

The dragon is dead.

At least wounded..

See, in this game I’ve utilized this tactic called “give a shit about my job and never stop working”

Utilize addiction, but only in the form of beating a task.

Get anal about it.

Hyper vigilant..

And you can’t stop that approach. Not in the workplace…

You can’t argue with someone that kills.

There’s no ground to stand on…

But he’s a control freak, and clearly the most sore of losers.

I will maintain my previous battle tactic…

I will work and work relentlessly.

I never stop working.

(On the clock)

Yes, on the clock, I’m more into “play” off the clock..

And without money, you can’t exist.

And I’ve seen drugs take down people, take them down to the point where they can’t even have a job.

Cannot kiss the feet of a capitalist overlord.

I digress…

It’s pivotal.

It is absolutely pivotal to hold down your work.

(That guy might really shoot you in the face)

Yeah…

I really am a game playing asshole.

But it goes back to my point

“You don’t have to smart.

You don’t have to be clever,

You just have to be right”

(If you enjoy living in conflict…)

I do not know another way.

I have no idea what it would be like if people in the workplace got along..

No clue because I’ve never seen it.

They are in there with whips and furnaces, that’s the way it goes..

(He might kill you for fucking with his work life)

He brought it on himself..

Also,,,in some fucked up way,,,

I’d be slightly proud if my death came from pissing someone off,,,badly enough..

That’s some high level jokester shit.

You got under someone else’s skin enough to trigger.

Literally trigger..

(He’s a simpleton. It hasn’t even been a challenge)

I know,, but still.

(That’s not a victory, and he is not an equal opponent)

I know…I just like winning..

And again, built off of task killing, built off nonstop working.

I’m on camera 8 hours a day.

Zoom in on my desk…

I don’t stop.

I don’t stop fucking working.

I zero in and I blast it.

(He might kill you tomorrow)

Yeah…he might…

He’s got kids, too much to lose.

He ain’t gonna do shit.

(He’s a gun owner)

My attack is to make him look bad by comparison, he could always change how he acts..

(Might shoot you in the face..)

Yeah…

I might deserve it.

This monkey enjoys the psychological landscape far too much.

I’d probably deserve it.

Cool ending though!

I’m going to keep relentlessly task killing, on the clock.

Let this battle between him and Josh play out.

None of us would be here if it weren’t for Josh.

Muh-fuckin Odin up there.

Lazy, but ambitious.

Money hungry, but so self assured.

Josh knows me.

And he sees that I don’t stop..

Dustin is the big dumb dragon, and the big dumb dragon misstepped, and he might be down.

Might be done.

(He might shoot you in the face…)

Yeah.. he might.

(or he’ll use your Kratom problem as a point of attack)

THAT.

Is something logical to think about.

But my problem can’t be proven, I just look a little sleepy after I dose.

I keep it way down 👎

Super super small dosage amount.

On the clock.

But alas….

It is a vulnerability.

I don’t feel guilty about it because it’s bad to get intoxicated every single day. I feel bad about it because it is a vulnerability.

(stuff to think about…)

Yeah..

I’m really glad I have a diary.