I want to be better than I am.
Scrolling the news, eyeballing little YouTube clips, trying to take in perspective,,,,shit man.
More divide.
A new flavor, not like what we’ve all been through in the last ten years.Political groups imploding from the inside out, more fighting. More frittering.
God damn man.
Good points on both sides, sssssuper heavy topic and a true matter of life and death for people on the other side of the world.
Can they sell you on war?
Even better, can they sell you on a HOLY war?
Hurts me, not like it hurts them, but I’m just now pushing past all those fairy tales.
Ya know, if you could snap your fingers, and turn all religious people into Buddhists , all this crap would go away…
Makes me so sad.
And it couldn’t have less to do with me..
What are the options?
1.head in the sand, do nothing.
2. Defend Islam, act like I’m down with all the fringe and extremists
3.Defend Israel, ride or die, God chose them for a reason and we’re entering the end times.
4. Call conspiracy, claim the whole thing is planned and we’re all being steered into some direction of an unknown party
(Possible)
5. Get mad at the species, cop out and pray for the asteroid.
6. Roll Atheist, mock anyone who dares to daydream , to think there might be more than this.
7. Get exhausted and bitch to my diary..
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I’m really sorry that it’s like this.
And I’m sorry that people have to live through this, have to suffer so deeply.
I have no answers, don’t even think I have statements at this point,
Where it may go is terrifying,truly,madly (deeply?)
It fucks with your head if you let it in, rolls around with thoughts while you’re trying to rest… what if someone knew that? What if someone figured out EXACTLY how to trigger a response?
(Conspiracy?)
I’m just saying, it can be done,,,story can grab people, can herd people into many different directions, a terrible part of groups.
(Conspiracy , you’re calling conspiracy )
I’m thinking out loud , and I’m such a skilled bullshitter that it makes me picky about what stories I invest in.
(I don’t think it helps)
Then I can simply express, I can say that I’m sad. I can say that fear is right over the next hill, or I feel that way.
(Blame?)
I dunno man. Blame God? Blame humans? Blame old books? I dunno man. I watched a video of a man finding out his son was killed, I watched all these smarty pants people tell me how I should feel about it,, I dunno man…
If a soul is real, if there actually is SOMETHING at the core of yourself, thank the heavens that it wasn’t sent to that place. Thank whatever you believe in, thank the stars, and try to remember how good we got it.
( you like, can’t even pick a side , just thoughts and prayers)
Weird. Fucking weird.
Extremists….the extremists are to blame. The Pentecostal version of Islam and Judaism.
Fuckin quacks, letting a piece of their brain get away from them, because it’s tied to feelings.
Sorry for rambling, I’ll try to be clever some other time.
Youtube might be a problem, I tried to uninstall it and my phone wouldn’t let me, something to do with linked Google accounts. You’d think an adult male would have the willpower to not scroll,,weird.
dawn 