And if I say
“Kevin, you’re an angry drunk..and I’ll see ya later”
I don’t say it to be mean, or to win an endlessly escalating argument..
Say it because it’s true.
Say it because I love ya.
I’Ve noticed, during the last little while..
Your emotions ramp.
And I’ve seen that behavior before, I’m very attuned to it.
You catch the thread of emotion and you refuse to let go..
It makes you not fun to talk to.
And forget about me, but that shit will spill out into your real life.
And that’s a drag.
Because I think you’ve got a neat mind.
I don’t have the energy to get so worked up.
In conversation or in my own, isolated thought space, I just don’t.
Not dead inside, but wounded,,
The days…the days wore on me…
But still.
I’m not an angry drunk lolol.
I don’t even feel like a sad drunk.
I think I’m a sad everything else…
You see,,,my oldest friend,,,
Keep it inside.
Get it sorted somewhere safe.
DONT
UNLOAD
THAT
SHIT
Not on others.
That’s a cruel way to be.
I ain’t looking for no fight.
I want the good stuff.
I like the easy chill and free flow of thoughts.
I like calm people.
Save the rage for an outlet of some sort,,
Don’t expect to me take it.
ANd for that matter…
Why do you think it’s ok to scream at me like that?
Why on Earth would anyone want to continue a conversation?
If you’re scream crying about billionaires..
Really..really upset…
Because it must be someone else’s fault.
Life can’t suck for us because of the choices We’ve made,,nah,,that insanity..
It must be someone else’s fault,,,
That’s the only answer…
So….
Where we agree.
It’s a game,
I hate that it is but I’m not mad at the people who win.
That seems crazy to me.
To fixate on the successful..
Personally.. I think they’re bitch ass motherfuckers, just like the rest of us,,
They simply won.
And they worked for it…
So…
There’s a piece of the equation we’re missing.
We struggle, we grind,, we fly off the handles and quit jobs and friendships.,,
We don’t play like they play..
Why do you think it’s ok to scream at me like that?
I know how you feel, and I agree with a lot,,, but I’m not over here getting mad about shit..
You’re alive for like, 15 minutes,, why,,in,,,the fuck would you want to spend it pissed off??
Fucking why??
(Glass houses)
Ah,,,
You right..
I’m sad..
My sadness is as potent as your anger.
BUT!!!
I genuinely don’t want to unload that on people.. I don’t want people to feel bad for me,, or if I do I’m not aware of it…
Smart ass is cool.
Cry screaming at your friend isn’t.
And I’m not afraid of giving up friendships, it’s not my goal,,but man…
Hear me.
Listen.
You’re not fun to talk to when you drink.
When you ramp..
It’s not pleasant and I don’t want it..
(Nobody wants to talk to you when you’re sad)
But I’m aware.
I know this..mayne,,
I do..
Don’t pour that shit out on others,,
(Irritable shine through)
Daily withdrawals lololo
I’m a sweetheart!!!
Alright,,,,angry drunk…
I don’t want it.
I like laughy drunk,
I like silly,
I like shit talk and nonsense…
Lovvveeee nonsense..
But anger???
Can’t
dawn 