I was listening to a true crime podcast today, always out of curiosity, and it was a story about this guy..
Horrible childhood, horrible crimes later in life, but what caught my ear was his writing from prison.
He would do this thing, like, draw you into a story and then try to damage the reader with his mind. Say shit that was ultra shocking, ultra fucked up, he was using words to carry out some sadistic mission. Using thoughts to try to bore into the mind of a reader.
I had a moment of connection and nausea.
If I’ve ever done that, I regret it. I think I have done that. Whether or not it was a conscious action,,,,mmmm, I get moods and a lot of thoughts. I uh, I like venting and there’s not really a place for it in the real world. So I’d type. I didn’t mean to be sadistic, or do any type of damage by bringing horrible thoughts into the universe…
I guess uhhhhh “oopsy”. Still real feelings, but not rooted in reality. “oopsy”. I shouldn’t have done it that way.
dawn 