So…
What exactly is serotonin ?
I know what it is on paper, by definition.
A chemical that facilitates the sending of signals, nervous system, brain synapse.
I know that after a night of MDMA use, some people will take Wellbutrin, to balance their levels…
But what the fuck is it?
The gasoline that moves the little cars?
Oh, that complicated chemical soup.
The genetic, the environment, the personal abuse.
I catch myself being happy, little spurts here and there. I catch myself wanting to clean, wanting to clean up and take care of all that I neglect..
Weird.
Little victories and things to be grateful for.
I value the connections I have.
And no matter what?
It’s been worse.
Much worse.
Having an “edge” does you no good after enough circle walking.
That middle finger might be strong, but you’ll be alone.
So you pop the hood.
If you’re curious enough and if your shit sucks, there might be a point where you wish to investigate.
Bad genes, bad backstory, bad choices.
I refuse to believe that we’re all doomed.
And those people on the street have real problems, the rest of us only have hurdles.
Soooo,,,
Stay the course.
Try something for fuck’s sake.
…….
This one, she tells me I’m smart,
Makes me feel like there’s value in this soul.
I like the talk.
Needed that.
To have someone to listen to, to vent without unloading, to laugh with.
Everybody needs that.
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The brain is everything.
The body supports the brain, the brain calls the shots.
For better or worse.
It’s everything.
dawn 