dawn

Man,,

Empty is no joke.

It might be the most encompassing mood a person can feel.

All of it.

There’s no point to any of it and the word hopeless doesn’t even do it justice.

Acceptance.

If you can accept Jesus into your heart, you can also accept the understanding that the universe is chaos in motion.

There is no point.

And there is no reason.

And you’re supposed to put on a face and walk around with people that disagree, you’re supposed to find “value” in them, you’re supposed to listen like they know any fucking thing..

You don’t know what I know…

But there it is.

It’s a mood that can’t leave fast enough.

Fuckin wreck you, ruin your mind, leave nothing behind.

You think it’s unfair?

Of course it is.

But that’s day one understanding.

Shit is unfair..

Dig down, do a self inventory past that..

(Heart)

Aye, heart is real. Anne Wilson is a legend, and that shit that was?

Those places you were at and the choices you made?

No one is an angel.

The opposition ain’t no fucking angel either. Stone in the hand,building on sand,,

Fucked is fucked.

And most likely shalt remain fucked.

Again,,old news.

But it’ll get in your head, and this cloud will hang around, and it starts moving South..

It wants your heart.

Wants to eat your spirit.

Darkness fogging around the chest and a thought pops in

“Is this it?”

Is this the moment when the knees buckle?

(Only if you’re a bitch)

Ahhhhh!!

The words I needed.

Fucking concepts to meditate on…

Sometimes I feel like I can’t beat it, like I don’t know how to fight..I feel like it will get me someday.

These are very personal things I’m on about, and I don’t think I’m alone,

I don’t like feeling the things I feel.

I don’t personally feel like White Jesus can help.

And I DEFINITELY hate you mother fuckers..

SO here we are.