Heh
Ha !
Tee hee?
Not even awake.
Fuck an Adderal, sure would like a soft bed, and my cat…fuck it, throw in a Xanax for good measure.
A little music box playing.
Always fascinated by those things,
Little slivers of metal, cut at a length to correspond with a tone.
Exact measurements, fuckin exact.
This length is a B, this length is an A sharp.
Plink plonk plunk.. sleepy time, pitch black room,,
Bet I could stay forrrrrr…
Days man.
Fuckin days.
I could turn off this whole motherfucker and rest my eyes for,,,
I dunno. A week..
The place I ammmmmmm,,
I get so angry with the grunts, they behave like rodents,, but the owner comes to me, the higher up, the higher level…
God damn I’m so lucky.
I’m so lucky that someone sees ability in me, so fucking lucky.
For that, I will fight the fight, but it’s not because I care,, it’s because you care.
You take the moment to think about what I do and you take the time and money to show appreciation.
That’s the recipe for loyalty, that is why I’ll fight my own shit, to show up for you.
Warm fuzzies.
Now..back to murder fantasies!!
I’m gonna plug you into a life that you never asked for, ,,
I’m gonna,,yawnnnnn, I’m gonna fuckin,,,,
Snore…
Snore………
Look… sleep is so important.
SO with ZERO intoxicants, I stayed awake and I stared at a pitch black ceiling for,,,what is that ?
6 hours?
7 hours?
I try everything, I count sheep, I replay all my mistakes in my head (super healthy), I do this military trick about filing thoughts into file cabinets as they rush into your mind…
7 hours…
Sev–in hours.
Torture?
It’d be torture if it were irregular.
It’s normal.
The mind body slams 3 milligrams of melatonin. The body is tired as fuck, but the mind?
That shit got a cape on.
It’s flying around, perturbing..
Not evil…
Just irritating.
There’s a difference.
I’m sorry, sorry for how I read.
Not sorry for doing it,
dawn 