dawn

Societal.

Knocking stuff down.

(did it to ourselves..)

Seems like it.

I stand by the soap opera concept.

I fucked my back up, lower as always.

Bending, picking up stuff at work, loading stuff.

In a lot of pain and it hurts to walk, I’m certain it’s because of how long I’ve been sitting.

How sedentary.

Back pain is the worst.

Take some Tylenol and go back to bed.

I watched a little bit of the news and then I made coffee.

I went outside with my field recorder and I petted the cat.

So he starts purring right into the microphone,and I just recorded it..

Then I went inside and transferred the file to the Tascam, now I had a foundation.

(a foundation of noise..)

Still a foundation.

I took his purr and I soaked it with reverb, made it sound like a massive cat at the back of a cave,

Deafening levels of cat noise.

Then I brought in the wind,, pre-storm levels of wind.

Gaining volume, picking up speed…

Then I grabbed my guitar…and that’s where everything fell apart.

I get so hung up in these loops 😔

You can make something huge, really big,,, but it’s just a loop..

(a poop loop)

Fruit loop loops poop-shoots…

Turner and Hooch.

Hoochie and the growfish,

Rock .. and …roll hoochie coo…

Lawdy momma light my fuse…

(light my fuse!)

Rock and roll hoochie coo….

Wait… where was I?

I was playing with cat noises…what am I doing?

What am I doing with my life 🧬?

There’s stuff going on outside,all this sound and all this clambering…

(sounds like shackles to me..)

And you was born into it.

As soon as you had a social security number…

And I just wanted to sit down and play with music, fingerpaint and dilly Daley..

But you…

You made this stuff matter.

You manufactured it.

And I’m mad at you for it..

But I’m not going to let it win.

I’m not going to let it affect how I interact with real people, not going to divide..

Because y’all motherfuckers shady..

Done been shady.

For like…ever..

Tired of ya.

Hope your toilet backfills and covers your bathroom in sewage..

“And that’s All I have to say about that”- Forest Gump

(WAR)

war makes everything real…

Changes the whole thing.

And death is an important part of it.

Convincing you of importance…

(everything all at once)

Crescendo of a loop.

You add a little, add a little, add a little, add a little,…

Tough to pinpoint where it all went wrong.

(never should have left England ,maaaannn)

Maybe we should have stayed in the jungle..I don’t know man

I don’t feel well .

Later I will be glad that I don’t live in a cave..

(And that you’re too old and too crazy to be drafted 🤣)

Can I get an Amen 🙏

No war for this one ..

Even seen that Tim Robbins movie called Jacob’s ladder?

That’s an effed up movie..

I would protest Vietnam.

If I were alive..

No one over here is dying.

(yet )

And we have the most money and the best toys,, warfare is basically call of duty at this point..so..

So very impersonal.

(maybe you actually should vote)

Then I would have to stand by it,, and consent, and act like it’s all on the up and up…

It’s exhausting.

Takes a lot out of you..

You might catch me bitching to my diary about it,

I put effort into not bringing that into reality.

Which is Head in the sand, but also, y’all motherfuckers really are shady.

Stalemate.

That’s a stalemate.

The house wins because it’s set up that way.

Do you see it?

Do you see this thing 🤯?

You must feel it ,at least..

You know something’s wrong.

I think you know it, but you only vocalize it selectively..

I think you do.

(boundaries 😉)

That’s a big word.

Boundary.

What you will and what you won’t permit.

What you will allow.

Inside and out.

Internal and external.