For all the chemicals I’ve put into my body over the years, for the things I’ve tried or the things I thought I had control over..
One is more gross than the others.
“Thinking about yourself”
We all do it.
If the mind is a revolving door, then most of the thoughts are self involved, self indulgent
(Ego driven)
Yo..right here.
Guilty as fuck.
Even making the observation is just another version of spinning the camera around and looking at yourself.
Icky.
You might not believe me, but typing it down does help.
I’d rather talk about other shit.
(But other shit doesn’t need work as much as you do)
Society does…
(Oh shut the fuck up !🤣)
Alright… you right.
Fix yourself, and if everyone could, then society would be fixed..
I’m gonna say some mean things now…
Americans are not worth a shit, in the workforce.
The office ones are hung up on flowery language and bullshit ass emails, passive aggressive, arrogant shit.
The field workers would rather be doing something else.
And we all think we’re entertaining.
I notice some people hung up on the concept of “displaying IQ”
I’d bet my IQ is around Forest Gump levels…
(Thinking about yourself..)
Aye..
You get terrified when you zoom out.
You should, it’s terrifying.
I feel hatred when I observe how people drive, the bumper stickers they display, how they walk, how they dress , how they speak..
Sometimes I want them to all disappear,
Sometimes I just want to get away from them.
ANd those are my shittier moods.
I don’t care for that and I wish it was different
(Still thinking about yourself…)
Ugh!!
DO you realize….
That either candidate, either one of them,,,,, could end up horribly.
DO you think about that?
How ugly it could be with either one of them?
ANd whatever larger game is at play, it seems like they’ll get their way.
So…
Enjoy your feeling.
Enjoy the victory, enjoying your enemies loss.
Recoil in the loss, be envious of your enemies victory.
You don’t think it’s silly?
Not even a little?
I can’t be the only one.
Of course you do, at least a little…
Which would be fine, I love silly stuff.
But people are going to die and thieves are going to take your money…
(That we assigned value to)
Yup.
Yuuuuuppppp.
I’m supposed to be stressed , on top of all that?
I’m supposed to give 8 hours of my precious attention for 8 goddamn hours every day, then CARE about whatever these mongrels are on about??
You can’t be serious.
Don’t fucking call me Shirley, you cunt,
You can’t be muh fuckin serious..
Jesus wept.
My god..
My absent Father..
My sky daddy..
Is this it?
Is it all there is??
I stay intoxicated, for weeks on end.
I do a little every day, and I wait for the two days when I can do a lot…
Because of this.
Makes you wish for death!
Ha!!!
And year after year…
One after another after another….
Back to THIS place…
(Thinking about yourself)
Ahhh!!!
All tension, no release.
SO you blab. You calm down, you cycle, then you do it again
dawn 