dawn

And Alex subtlety implied

“She’s saying some things about you”

I figured.

And at the end, when it was over and time for goodbye,

I didn’t react.

I didn’t give her tears or anger or any of it, after years and years and years, i was completely over it.

Emotionally done.

Nothing left inside.

So I just said “OK”

And that got under her skin.

After all the fighting.

All the times she baited me and tried to test her knight, her knight was fucking done.

ANd he didn’t care anymore.

Alex told me,

“Hey man, your friends know you and know how she is”

Crazy.

I told him that I didn’t care, and I didn’t want to know anything that was going on in her life.

Because it hurt.

Fucking hurt.

We had years in it.

ANd there were 20 times when I did react, and I did cry, and I did try to prove myself.. I was just done.

And that hurt her feelings.

So she had to kill me.

And she had to be the victim.

And that’s how that one goes.

I made the decision

“I’ll never do that again”

Not with one like her, no sir.

I’m aware now, and I’ll steer clear,and I won’t lose years and thousands of dollars…

I hope she’s well.

And I’ll admit that it hurt, worse than anything else,,

But trust me.

That one is not what she seems.

Maybe she’s grown, I dunno.

But for real, I’d rather die alone.

A thousand times over.

Things got ugly and it was not worth any of It.

(Maybe the learning)

Maybe.

So i connected some dots in my head… i think.

And I don’t feel shame, because I know what happened and who I am.

Believe whatever you’d like