I saw some inspirational Youtube thumbnail
“Indifference is a super power”
Holy shit dude,, I must be , godlike , for like, a really long time now.
Indifference.
” what’s that now? Yeah I don’t care”
Either a brain I was born with or a result of choices, something is just not the same.
I can’t bring myself to care.
It’s either darkness and loneliness and sadness,,
Or it’s completely legit, complete logic.
I don’t care about what bothers you, I don’t care why you’re upset, I find the majority of statements spilling out of your face, I find them to be petty.
God doesn’t care about you and neither do I.
The universe doesn’t give a fuck what you have to say, but still, here you are. Down here just’a’ saying it.
Callous vibe. Comes and goes. Booze sleep is more like disconnection, you’re not really here, you just close your drunk eyes at one hour and open them at another, time travel with a side of headache.
Wake up thinking about indifference.
What is petty and what matters.
Bitching about the petty can be funny, it can be cute and it can help pass the time,,
Still petty.
ANd people love it, love engaging with the petty shit because it’s an opportunity to be right, and that’s a statement to how sad lives are.
“You just want to win”
To be right about something, any fucking thing, just let me be right.Let me be the King shit.
Silly. Silly and prevalent.
That shit a disease, I’ve been hooked. I see it in most of the living humans I deal with.
Feels like we’re all petty as fuck, makes me laugh, seems like I should cry, but I dunno,,
Petty fucking critters down here.
Cats.
I think I learned it from cats, and my stepfather. Cats are the most indifferent , they do care, and there is actually love deep down in there, but on the surface?
Cats don’t give a fuck.
And that’s why I love them.
Maybe you have an emotional wallet, and the paper inside it represents caring. Only so many dollars to care, be so very careful where you spend them. Do not fritter and waste your caring. Because these petty motherfuckers are out there selling, they want your money, they want you to engage with some petty bullshit.
Keep an eye on that.,
Be aware ,it gets worse as you get older.
Cumulative and progressive, a degenerative disease . Gets worse and worse.
( you’re supposed to care. Humans care)
I’m fuckin broke,
In the emotional wallet.
I’ve given away my shekels, my ruppies, my dong, my yen, my marks, my dollar…
There’s nothing in there anymore…
( think I hear some change jingling in your pocket though)
You’re right. I hear it too.
(Guard that shit with your life)
I will….. How do I get more emotional dollars?
( some say you should invest it)
In people? Out in the world? Gross.
( you could try good deeds, maybe you’ll get a little return)
Then it’s not really a “good” deed.
(Then stay broke)
God damn.
A tough one.
Isn’t the asteroid overdue?
( no one cares, daydreaming about extinction doesn’t help anything.)
Yeah,,, so I guess I stay emotionally poor.
( and go mingle with all those petty fucks)
Nodding off in a hot-tub don’t sound so bad sometimes.
( too soon.)
Yeah,,, the junkie demon isn’t petty.
( probably the MOST petty. Nihilist strings and modus operandi )
Diary… Diary helps. Hefty helping of holy diary diarrhea . A diorama diary for diarrhea,
( I think diary does help. Without a doubt.)
Looking in my emotional wallet,,, disappointed,,,” somebody gotta explain why I ain’t got shit”
( right here bud)
Oh yeah…
Is disconnection petty? A Withdrawn person is a petty person?
( nah, it’s something else altogether )
” I ain’t got shit”
( no sir you do not)
I keep my feelings limited and guarded.
( a natural response to not having shit)
I hate you, I hate all of them.
( no you don’t , that’s a feeling and you don’t really have those)
Wow….
(Yeah man)
I uh… I guess I’ll just go to work then, like I’m supposed to. Make some money that I don’t care about, hang out with my cat.
( empty can rattles the most, you fuckin dildo)
Alright,, thanks for the existential chat..
(Anytime bud,, good luck to you)
Good luck to you too.
dawn 