Peaceful is always better.
Just in the scheme of things, I operate better when I’m not daydreaming elaborate scenarios. That “flow” thing I like to yap about,, it’s real, sometimes you can catch it and sometimes you can’t. Dealing with the world at large is another story, just the day in and day out stuff,,, nobody knows what I’m thinking or how I’m feeling, and that’s fine, I don’t look at strangers and wonder what’s happening in their noggin.
Keep it inside, normal blending policy.
It’s rare that I can’t.
Working in an office now, I see people go home because of personal reasons, some train wreck happening where you live, some family drama, some pet drama, some financial drama.
I don’t get how they bring it in with them.
I don’t understand how they failed to compartmentalize.
Or maybe I’m the weird one.
When I engage the task, the task is all I’m thinking about, chit chat if you’d like, but c’mon man… let’s do this thing.
We’re here to do this thing.
Everything is different once you punch the clock, and maybe that’s my own shit, maybe longterm conditioning of capitalism.
No matter where I’m at in life, EVEN if I’m super bored or depressed or existential…
I’ve still come a long way.
And straight up, I would not have hired myself until I was about 30. Come a long way from that particular ditch,, so I take it. I do not labor for love but I still labor. I unplug at the end of the day and try to prepare for the next day,,
It’s not exciting, or interesting or worthy of any expression at all,,,
But I hold it down..
Talking to my friend,, he’s in love with the North. Feels like it’s home to him because it is, and the South was never fond of his uppity vocabulary.
“I’m going to stay”
Good, I’m glad you like where you work and you like the people you’re around, you’re very fortunate in that.
I also applaud your resolve, and have no tactful way to reflect on your circumstance.
Not even about victim or aggressor, illness or just symptoms ,
I don’t feel “sorry” for you, I feel something though. Like we can look at the whole thing and just sigh a bit.
Stay tough bro
dawn 