dawn

I took an inch in the right direction today, maybe not an inch, maybe a centimeter,maybe a slug slide,maybe a cunt-hair.. A tiny tiny little turn towards some imaginary beacon in the metaphorical distance. Maybe happiness is a voice that we all recognize, with no mute button, no bypass. Calling you,,, “ring ring mother-fucker.” Is anyone home? Life doesn’t have your god-damn cell number.

Right and wrong. Start with that toddler logic. Every person should have some gut feeling of it, “should”. If God looked down and caught Solomon jacking off on the Sabbath, we’d have no book of Ecclesiastes, right?

I had Enya in the eardrum, “everything flows, here comes another new day. Alleluia”-echoes in rain.

Yes it does dear.Your life and work have been of great benefit to me, and I’m really glad that you were born,and I’m really glad that I had ears to hear you with.

. Mail it to the fan-club and never speak of it again.

Anyways, I had a productive day and my thought process was as active as it always is,but there was a sense of “OK, what’s next?”. You know ,,you’ve always known, so it goes back to right and wrong. It’s only a cycle if you feel guilty about it and become defeated,wallow. Depression is real as fuck, super-duper-ultra real. The mind is also strong as fuck, and if you can get it to shake hands with the heart, you’re unstoppable.A cornball cheesedick mother-fucker, but still unstoppable.

I can take today’s vibe into tomorrow, go frolic with some fuckin’ sunflowers man. Eat some watermelon, watch the big fat ass Sun rise, fat as fuck, first thing in the morning the sun was fat as fuck. And a deep deep shade of red. It’s something to see and my eyeballs saw it,blasting light through dense patches of trees… “Here comes another new day”. Yes it is, yes it is, yes it is…..Don’t get ahead of yourself, just keep the bounce .Forgive yourself if you drop it, but always try to pick it back up.

A diary is better than meetings or church, prove me wrong 🤣