dawn

Life is meant to be lived and I do this shit wrong.

But it’s a maddening world, impossible to argue against that fact. Right?

Do your best? Do all that you can ?

I suppose. Do your best in whatever little way you can…

But Jesus man, it’s maddening out there.

Or maybe they only want you to THINK it’s maddening,but in reality, people aren’t that bad .

Tough to sort out. I’m sure not unique.

This gig I started, I’m interested in it, but straight up,,,, obsolete in 5 years. It fucks with my head.

(you’re getting good at something useless)

Yeah but, that’s the majority of my life.

( no future,la la la, doesn’t matter if you like it)

But I can do it right now, I can earn and learn right now.

( I give a fuck about the coin, I’m referring to the time you’ll spend)

Yes the time…. I’ve got plenty.

( no you don’t, you know it, I know it. You don’t)

Fuck… why you gotta shit on my good vibe? All day, I was thinking “this is fun, I’m not bad at this” and here you come

(telling the truth)

Telling the bleak. You always have to take it to that shit.

(I’m still right..)

I wish you weren’t, fucking asshole. You noticed I was starting to feel up and you had to ruin it, like everything else.

(I’m telling you the truth. If you invest into this position,you will have no safety net in five years. That’s called reality.)

But I have a relationship with the company 😞 they understand that I’m a weirdo but they work with me..

(fear, you’re only motivated by fear!)

Meh…

Maybe.

Probably.

What’s up with Israel?

(don’t change the subject)

I wanna go put my head in lava. Fuckin AI. Making me worry about employment.

(yeah dude, let’s put the whole thing on hold so you can keep a middle class income job in the middle of f****** nowhere)

Well yeah, the universe works for me right? Isn’t this shit all about me?

(cute)

Yeah

(keep thinking, aggressively, think constant and relentless. Do not stop until it’s clear)

It will never be clear.

(then spin your wheels .)