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If that girl texted Kevin on that Sunday afternoon, and she asked him to bring her some weed….

She knew he was coming.

SO she wanted to cause drama for him.

I know this because I saw her do it every-time we hung out. I took him out of town to work, under the table, and she called with this huge disaster of drama.

Legit.

Said that people were coming to rape her.

I saw her do that, in different forms over and over.

Ignite some huge catastrophe that made him stop whatever he was doing, and go tend to a damsel in distress.

A psychological thing.

A codependent thing.

An insecure thing.

I don’t think she set out to kill herself.

I think she set out to worry him.

I think she set out to bait him and give him a shit-show to deal with.

But it backfired.

Because she didn’t understand her body or the limitations.

Now…it’s a sad story, but I think it could be an important story.

A story about unhealthy psychology.

And a story about two people being bound together and drug into this deadly,,this deadly fuckin thing.

I’ve seen bad relationships.

Been in em.

But they don’t cause death.

It’s an extreme case, no doubt.

But in a way he really did kill her,, or maybe she set him up to be the one that killed her.

She set him up to be the Knight, to ride through and rush her to the hospital like he did several times before,,,, but not this time.

He was too late.

And she was foolish as fuck for setting up the scenario like she did.

I really believe it..

She didn’t drink like that because she enjoyed how it felt,, I think she drank like that to be a fucking problem, and to get the attention, and to test how much this guy actually cared about her..

That’s what I think.

Just a game that got out of hand.

Way the fuck out of hand.

It can go both ways, an insecure dude, testing his woman. An insecure woman, testing whether or not she snared a ride or die knight.

Or a knight testing another knight.

Someone is a damsel, someone is supposed to be the hero.

But the dragon got her.

And that’s why you don’t fuck around with dragons.

Or damsels that keep them nearby.

Or knights that can’t kill one.

People man… people are fucked up.

In all kinds of ways.

Don’t let that shit happen to you, or to the ones you love.

Attention is a weird and unwritten language.

And I…..

I don’t want to have anything to do with it.

Seems like it makes what’s “pure”,, seems like it makes it “impure”.

Seems like it fucks up whatever the motivation is, and therefor, fucks up the product.

I don’t want that.

And I got my own dragons, and I also don’t want to introduce them to anyone.

Damn.

What a shame.

A dysfunctional relationship going so wrong,,so wrong that it ends in death.

I wouldn’t have the opinion I do, if I didn’t watch it.

If I didn’t watch it from afar for two years.

Saw her fuck up his job, his friends, his band, pretty much everything. Like an infection in his personal life.

Sad dudes.

Dudes that get a taste of love and throw away everything else they have. Sacrifice to the fire.

Throw it away because this feeling feels so good.

This orgasm. This cuddle, this laugh.

You get addicted to it.

And you squeeze too hard, and the partner squeezes back and before you know it…

Fucksville.

Whole thing becomes fucked.

Because you’re not a grown up, and you attracted something similar.

And someone died..

Over a game…

Try not to do that.

Stupid shit .

People do stupid shit for stupid reasons.

Better than prison I guess.

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Boy did I just have a nightmare