dawn

When I say “I’m better off alone”, I mean it.

If I say “none of this matters”

It’s because it doesn’t.

The stability of the line of thought,, it doesn’t work unless you mean it.

I mean it.

And the world outside is dogshit and I don’t want anything to do with you clowns.

And that pissy way of thinking, it doesn’t work unless you mean it.

And I do.

So….

There’s strength in that.

And I don’t miss the pretty, manipulative, narcissistic devil one that everyone wanted to see her tits.

That girl, is the worst version of a girl. And the story she tells is very different from reality.

And the love wasn’t fucking worth it.

Or the effort.

Or the patience and abuse.. the sheer fucking pain of being with someone like that and trying for so many years.

She is not what she appears..

I Fucking promise.

No… No desire to be anywhere near a person like that.

Not ever again..

The one I miss, is the one that people make fun of.

The person that’s actually pleasant to be around. With easy laughs and actual empathy and care for others.

Perverted right?.

Yeah, I’m a real kinky fuck, wanting to be around someone that is pleasant to be around.

Without all the fucking vanity.

Downside is?

Basically you mother fuckers.

Basically your cocksucker judgement machine.

Anywhere everywhere.

Meet a person, check out their better half,, so you can determine their value.

I hate you so much.

So deeply.

I think if your shit burnt down,most of you would absolutely deserve it and I wouldn’t even feel bad about it.

In fact, I’d laugh.

Like when I see you try…

Your world is dogshit and the only real answer is isolation or suicide,.

Everything else is just begging for attention, like the rest of you maggots.

And I like saying words that bother you.

Faggot cunt nigger Jew spic .

Diesel dyke child molester.

Fuck the money hungry church, fuck your cunt-ass version of God, fuck your self worship.

He promised he wouldn’t flood it again, but I ain’t seen no fuckin fire.

Not yet.

Might be on the way..

The majority of my existence is hating you, basically, because you deserve it.

And instead of mending problems, you’re just making more of yourself,, because you think you matter.

And you’re fucking stupid.

And I wish hell was real , only so I could have the peace of mind, I’d saturate on the thought of you burning for all eternity.

Because I hate you.

I hate what you are and I hate what you do.

I’d chop it up and slice your approach and “work” into shreds, but I just don’t give a fuck about you .

I don’t care what happens to you because you’re All the same.

And you’re horrible.

And I can’t wait for time to bring death to your feet, and until that day?

I just want to get away from you.

As far as I can.

I don’t want to hear an engine in the distance.

Don’t want to hear a cock sucking vehicle carrying your cocksucking ass across this planet.

I’m ashamed that we have to share a planet.

I’m ashamed of the way you behave and what you’ve done.

All of you.

You don’t deserve anything good, but that ain’t how life goes.

I hope it falls apart for you.

Because I hate you.

—

(real uplifting buddy..)

I don’t care.

Felt good to type.

—

Felt good to tell the truth, for once..

(felt good to express a mood, truth is subjective)

A lifelong recurring mood?

(let me ask you.. Do you really think pills can fix that? )

Brain chemistry is everything.

Also, I’m running out of things to try.

(you might just be an inherently hateful person)

And justified.

Don’t forget that part.

(you can’t be allowed to be around other people…)

I know.

I exercise great restraint out in the world..

(you might be hopeless)

I know…

Still told the truth though.

(fair enough..)

…….

(water that can never be water again)

Yep.

Still told the truth.

That’s the important part.

(I hope you feel better and reconsider your perspective someday)

Yeah, so do I

(..had to be exactly the way that it is. It could be no other way)

Yeah, you keep saying that…

(it’s an interesting angle to think about)

——

(I’m glad that this ends with you)

But it doesn’t, I’ve already told you, there’s another one of me. It’s my cousin’s kid.

Because it’s not limited to “parent/child”, it’s also “brother/sister”.

One of my mother’s brothers.

He’s got it.

(Maybe fate should smite him, and save everyone a lot of time)

Yeah,, pretty harsh to say about a child, but yeah.

Truth is truth.

(I understand why you fixate on population control)

Because you could fix people like me, you could get them out of the gene pool, and we would simply be something that “was”.

Before the species was smart enough to do anything about it.

(Ugly stance)

Still right.

I’m still right.

Nobody actually thinks about bloodline before breeding, they just go at it. And they shit out babies. And some of those babies are demons, because of “bugs in the bloodline”.

(Still an ugly stance)

Still true.

I am so deeply and so eternally grateful , so grateful that I did not pass this on.

Glad that the person I’d be bound to by love, just so fucking glad that he or she doesn’t have to carry this.

Easily my “most wise” choice.

Of all my choices.

(And now you wait for death)

Pretty much. there’s a lot to occupy yourself with in the meantime.

(Too bad about your cuz)

Yeah…

“It had to be exactly this way.

There’s no other way that it could be”.

…… I’m also glad that my kid doesn’t have to put up with any of you mother fuckers.

(El oh el)

I’m not being funny,, I really am glad.

(Anything else?)

I’m also glad that I’m not tied to a succubus.

That would suck.

(Spoken like a poet..)

It would really suck.

(Yes it would…el oh el)

“don’t let these mother fuckers break your spirit”

(hehehe they almost got you)

Bullshit, I’m strong as an ox and I typically heal in about 24 hours.

(watch yourself)

Fuck that.

Tell those clowns to watch themselves…

These niggas ain’t got no warrant.

(they’ll always try..)

Yawn 🥱

Let em.