dawn

I don’t think the pursuit is for things or success or name,

I think peace is being in a place that you belong.

With others if you’re lucky, people in the place they belong, aaaaand, nobody really knows anything, and we’re all gonna die, and stories are a stupid thing to live by, and killing is…foreign… or completely natural.

What could really piss you off that much? To want to kill someone? Or yourself? Seriously though, what could actually make someone want to murder? or make someone want to murder you?

I have a few thoughts.

Enemies. Conflict,strife,tension,terror, tumultuous tattle-tales, turncoat taxidermists, telling thoughts to toddlers,taking the turnpike,thrashing televisions ,tickling testicular thrombosis’s.

Not much. Not much is worth killing or dying for.

Everything passes ,everything is both eventual and temporary.

The world tells you that you’re not doing enough, but your vague goals are so very small.

Stuff is just stuff, and how much do you really need?

Face and status and name, pride, vanity, endless compulsion to acquire , a squire and a sire, a liar with a flat tire, if you find peace then maybe you can help others find peace. I’ll do it without God, more specifically , without your stupid books. Torah Quran Bible,, fuckin necronomicon, Bhagavad Gita, the epic of Gilgamesh , old as Methuselah ,

Lot of dudes writing a lot of shit.

” give God the first portion of your income”

What do you think is being spoken about in American churches this Sunday? This current Sunday? Take a guess how the sermon will be constructed, just guess.

Yep.

Does it not bother you?

Don’t you think it’s weird as fuck?

I hate Christians so much, and I’m not ignorant enough to say ‘all’, but for real…. most. In my neck of the woods. Most.

Seems like the options are,

Atheist – go full hate on ’em. Mock their shit because it’s so obvious. But that only makes them stronger, because they get to play victim and solicit sympathy and get more money in the plate,, seen it plenty.

Agnostic- ” hey guys , I don’t fucking know and I don’t think anyone CAN know”. Kind of a pussy move, but logical. Don’t choose a side.

Join them- which is just gross, and I couldn’t picture it.

4th option is crazy egomaniac. But still my fav.

Blend all 3.

You people are fucking crazy, there actually IS a God , but we don’t know anything about it,, because we’re ants. Just little ants down here, crawling around, doing our thing, thinking it matters.

Vulnerable as fuck but connected to something larger, doing the best we can with it.Trying to sort shit out.

It will never be sorted, probably not,

I wish people would kill and suicide bomb over funny things,just dumb shit, Wanna do something that matters? Go put a Jihad on the healthcare system, suicide bomb this system we live in, show those mother fuckers that you mean business, we’re sick of this shit, these bastards own us, and it’s never enough, it’s fucking never enough. Give me back the money I’ve put into Social Security, I’d buy new teeth and an acre of land away from the road, so I could let my cat outside, like he wants to be, in his heart.

Then I’m done.

I don’t need ANY more shit, I have way too much shit as it is. I have so much more than I need, or even want. I only want to work to feed myself and maintain shelter, that’s enough, that’s enough for me. I don’t want all this. I don’t want to shovel shit into my being, I don’t want to consume, I don’t want to sponsor any of this nonsense you fuckers are on about.. I like the small life. I don’t need to be known, seen,heard or felt. I don’t need your validation, I don’t need comparison and fuck your judgement. Fuck your oil, fuck your power, fuck your righteous indignation , fuck your conflicts, fuck your holy wars and moral superiority .

We were just born into it, and work matters, real talk…but Christ on a cracker man,,to what end? Why do I have to be a part of any of this? I’d rather just mind my business.

Think I should edit?

You fucking edit it.

I have no plans to go back and read, nor have I ever